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Episode 23 · 1 year ago

Stevie B Step 3 - Blind Faith @ Spread The Word Group 2020

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Thank you so much. I saidto Tommy, do you want to tell them who's speaking? Want introduce becausethat was it. That was awesome. I want to apologize for being latethat. I definitely was not trying to disrespect the group. There was someserious things going on on the way over here and and we pray that thathorrific car accident that we just passed that the people are okay. It wasquite shocking and we all have a lot to good GROATU for hurry man.We have a lot of wow and then I'm going to introduce myself in asecond problem. And then we just heard him on another member of our communitydied, named Terry, and that just a senseless death. Hi Everybody,my name is TVB. I'm a grateful recovering alcoholic and a member of theGolden Text Group of Dandy Beach Far. It's good to see everybody tonight.Good to see you guys from the east Naples men's group. What a greatgroup you guys have. Fantastic and Eddie. Is Eddie here tonight? He's goteighteen years. Is a big deal. And Alicia and Tanya and Christine andJay and Danielle and bill man Tanya again. Eight years total with her, two four years. Twice it's Gott butter here, once mustangs. Sowhat are you eat what? What a month, listen and what a timethat we're at right now. Tonight we're going to be talking about faith andstep three. Last first week, we spoke about step one, honesty.We're talking about you doing that night car on honesty. And then Latin lastweek we were talking about step June. We were talking about what's the Principof honest step to we're Tom I hope. We're hoping you'd come back, butnow, tom my faith. We have faith that when you get paidon the third next month, that you say I got his card. Thatdoesn't matter. All figures out how to get money. When there is noway to get money cancer, get an absolutely. Oh, he already knowsTim Joe here, you know here, you know this add nothing new partof the story. But his last place of his residency, the the directorof the company, a multi million dollar company. I'm not told my littlehalfways. I'm talking about the director of a multimillion dollar he texts me,he says, Hey, you know this Guy Carl in? I text himback. Absolutely, he said, do you want to come? Is ithim? I said I'll visit them on the fourth of January. I textedthem on the third. I said to Carlsfield, there he's gone. Itext them back. You can see why I didn't come visit him. Sowhat is it? Where we are now? We're at the twenty three. Twentythreeyets about the Boue witching hour right now. So that's what I wantto tell you. Rectors ran out of my just skid it. In needa place. It's cold out, it's raining this one. I want toshare what you never have to pick up again, no matter why, evenif you want to either. Desire to drink is not enough to put youout. It's not because you have the desire to drink. A relationship withGod. The relationship with God cancels out the desire to drink. Now,is it going to be easy? No, it was easy. Anybody could justsay a simple prayer. They would be sober. Now be a wedon't need one meeting, one step. We don't need one step. Numberfirst step. We'd say a prayer and...

...then we'd have sobriety like these gentilmylong terms. Right. That's it. One step won me. You're good, but that's not what we have. We have ongoing right now alcoholism thatwants to take us out and will use any means necessary. Speaking of that, I want to thank the veterans here. I see three or four veterans andlet's thank them for the Sir Y, you know who you guys are andI just appreciate it. But one of the things out there, there'sa there's a decorated ranger in here and and one of their slogans that theyhave is by any means necessary. The disease of alcoholism wants to take youout by any means necessary. It's not playing by any any rules of engagement, not playing by any rules of engaging. Wants to seek and destroy, killand conquer, destroy your family, destroy your hopes of a family.You know, I meant Tommy, Tommy then this own thing, how glorifiedhow we brought him to Tammy. And God, let me tell how wemet Tommy a year ago, during this time, while I was doing thesteps here, maybe even in this meeting, Tommy would be outside. I haveto take a drink. I public. And how I meant Tommy is everyweek he be outside waiting. No matter how if I was late orif there was rain, Tommy would be outside, as a newcomer, standingoutside that door waiting to pray with me. I didn't know. It was likehe was today through and I came in that door. I told youhow I met this young man here is that he saw that we were prayingthe third step, prayer before meetings, and he would wait. I didn'tknow him. He introduced himself to me said I would like to pray withyou. It wasn't like he was a gigantic believer. This is the partI want you to get about faith. Faith is not something that you needto have right now. Faith is an action. What my Tommy was ahuge believer. I'm not saying he was an unbeliever. His family goes.He's a church people, family people, but it wasn't like it wasn't likecrazy faith guy. So what did Tommy Do? He started walking in faith, acting in faith and do something very uncomfortable. Wait for a guy thathe doesn't know and say to that guy, I want to pray with you.And it happened every week and little but slowly, little by slowly,Tommy's now a faith guy. It didn't happen because he meant me or Tammy. It happened because of all of the above and all the fiftyzero things thatwe can't mention right now. How God works these things out. But whatit is started was an act of faith. I want to say that's a activefaith. Act of faith means action and the third step means action.You're going to hear some ridiculous third step analogies. If you go to therooms of alcoholics, anons, the ridiculousness you're going to hear that the thirdstep is only an idea and it's not really. You don't really have todo anything. And there's three frogs. They sit on a log and andthen one of them makes a decision, a jump. How many frogs arestill on the log? You see, you're already indoctrinated for this ridiculousness.That is nothing to do with the third...

...step. The third step is veryclear in the big book about all as anonymous and it talks about action todon't get anything about still sitting on that log. That's something we came upwith. We want to make a little bit soalter for people like you don'thave to do anything in third step, you just have to sit on thelog and just make a decision. You can still say it's okay, justcome back this week. Is can be fine. But this said, whenwe sincerely took such a position, all sorts of remarkable things followed. What'sthat position? Sitting? No, the position to have all sorts of remarkablethings following your life is that we need to stay close to God and toperform his work. Well, people always saying all the time, I don'tknow how you do this, four or five, six days a weeks.You can from the podium when you have a lot of personal things going onwith Jake. Do have some personal things going on. Today, as somepersonal things going on, I had like a whole list of the other joblist going on. This, this, this is this one sick, thisone inflicted things in my addict. I mean just just over and over andover again. I don't know where told you that and and people say everynight when they seem me to meaning it doesn't seem like it affects you.Well, it's in the back of my mind, but I know that allsorts of remarkable things are going to follow if I stay close to God andperform his work well and the result. I'm not doing all this to staysober. I know that's the common misconception or, knows, the common thought. I don't want to say to misconception, because maybe that's why you're here.Maybe your whole goal every single day that you're in alcoholics anonymous, yourgoal is sober. You're very you're very happy, firmly planted in the firsthand for the first step and you don't need to do anymore. You justhappy. You just sober. That's your goal. That's not my goal.I was already sober from the age from one to twelve. I was soberand I was miserable. I twelve good years. I was restless, irritableand discontent, maladjusted, feeling like other people had a better shot than me. They had two eyes, they were had both parents, they had samereligion, they weren't adopted. I had a lot of twelve years of soberbefore I have took a first drink. I had alcohols and when I tookthat first drink, alcohol cured my alcohols. I was like it, drink,that's a nice feeling. What is that? That's called peace. Ifthat's peace, I'm going to have another one of those, not a rightaway, because I'm twelve or thirteen or fourteen. You know, I've toldyou my first drinking choice was manna Chevin's Jewish table wine. That's my drinkingchoice even to this day. When I get to heaven, I know forsure is going to be Jews up there with me and will be drinking manof shades if the Lord says it's okay. Of course I'm going to ask missionfirst, but I think Manhas gonna be up there. We're not couldbe allowed to get drunk, but I think we'll be there a drink.I mean I'm just hoping my Italian brothers will have some Kyanti one class atKyanty in heaven. I don't think that's going to be healthy an so pleasedon't take that as any facts. That was a little sidebar. Don't bringthat back to where we live now. Please don't say see. Please Iwant to back up. I'm going to back up one pace to sixty two. Please, if you don't mind, this is not how in the wireof it. Please get that whole thing that there's three frogs on the logand then only one of them jumps and no, none of them jump.They made a sision. Please I want you to raise that. You don'tthink you could get that one from men in black and just tap yourself justa rings that. I want to try to put in some new information.Now. Let me give you some new information. That comes from the bigjoke about polics. Anonymous paid sixty two,...

...which is the precursor to the thirdstep. You Ready for this joke? Whatever a sentence starts out like this, you know it's going to be powerful. This is the how andwhy of it. First of all, we had to quit playing God.It didn't work. Next we decided in hereafter in this drama of life.Raising hand, if you think lives the drama, I think lives a Druma. I'm not saying that I participant, but I think it's veried. Alot of drums is a lot of drummer and I don't even watch the news. I don't. I don't even watch the news if I catch five minutesor Fox to CNN. There's so much drama in there it's too much forme. Life is a drum. It was a drama when they wrote thisbetween nineteen thirty five and nineteen thirty nine, they would just coming off the GreatDepression. They were coming out of the great wars, about to gointo another great war. There was a lot of drama going on. Therewas an excess finances, the stock market crashed. They didn't have meetings ofalcoholics anonymous all over the place. They had racism and HOMOPHOBI. That everythinggoing on that you, Patz, we could think of. They had Nazismand communism, things we don't don't even think about today. That had alot of stuff going on, and this is what they wrote. Next,we decided that hereafter in this drama of life. They wrote this in nineteenthirty nine, between nineteen and nine to nineteen thirty five, God was goingto be our director. Wait, that's the third step right there, andI'm having a tough day. God is going to be my director. Thisseemed like a tough week. God is going to be my director. Igot some stuff going on. God is going to be my director. Thecountry has got some stuff going on. God's going to be our director.See how that worse. You see why you don't have to pick up adrink or drug, even when you if you want to, if you keeppicking up what I want to tell you is you have not completed just steptoo, or your step one. Don't even think about this step. Ifyour main goal every single month or every single four months is to pick up, you're not understanding about turning your life and your will over to the careof God. And I said, you can say what you make. Itsound so simple. It is. Is it easy? No? Simple,yes, easy, no. We had to quit playing God. God wasgoing to be our director. He is the principle. We are his agents. That means he's the boss. We work for him, principal agents.was a very common thing to say. Boss, we work for him.Who should boss? God? Who Do you work for? God? WhoSigns Your pay checks? Gum, he is the father. We are aschildren. Most good ideas are simple, and this concept is the keystone,the key to the program of the new and triumphant arts to which we pass. Two Freedom. Raise your hand if you like to be slave, bondage, slavery. You like to be slave? You don't. You sign up forthat? I don't. I don't want to be a slave to anything. I don't want to be a slave to anything. I don't want tobe a slave to tobacco. I don't want to be a slave to alcohol. I don't want to be a slave to drugs, I don't want tobe a slave to Gamelin, I don't want to be a slave to anything. I want to be free. I want to ask you this question andI want you to ask it to yourself and then I want you to repeatit after me. How free do you want to be? And you donthave to answer this now. I'm just...

...going to just ask you. Howfree do you want to be? You want to be half free. Iwant to be able to go to any meeting at any time and go toany place and be able to feel free and be free. In order todo that, we're going to have to work the steps, because any lengthof time that you have in sobriety, if you haven't changed, you willand I will return back to the slop of the first half of the firststep. If I don't change, I'm going back to the slot. Idon't care how many years sober. Yet I had seven years sober and Iwent back to the SLOP, and I don't mean seven years like these wereformidable years. From two thousand four hundred and thirty one, I came outof college as a kid, got married in my sobriety, open businesses inmy sobriety, got cars in my sobriety, or the house in my sobriety.I was some formidable years that I thought maybe the drugs were just asituation for college and having a glass of wine would not be a situation asan adult that owned a home. And if you don't have alcohol is M'mwell, it's very possible you could drink into seven years. If you don'thave alcoholis and if you're just a heavy drinker and you take off seven yearsfrom drinking, it's very possible you could outrun this thing if you're if you'rea heavy drinking like or just say you just did some drugs for a periodof time and you're not really a drug addict. What's the different? IMITATOR? Difference? I told you the difference. When I first started to talk attwelve years old. I needed a drink. There was something inside methat always was saying, you know, you're a little awesty. I goto school and act I was there the day before. Everyone else was therein the day before. I show up the same next day. That's howit works. She show up the next day. You know, then theday before, you show up the next day and then the teacher was speakingand I heard Wa wa, Wa, Wa wa and everybody was writing stuffdown and to me it seemed like I missed that entire previous day of instructions. Then that happened for an entire grade. I'm like, did I miss anentire grade and I wasn't even using everything? For me was always difficult, it was always a challenge. I'm not saying that you that you havethat exact thing. Maybe your challenge for socially, maybe you can't speak infront of people. May You can't get on the stage to do a play, maybe you can't do sports, maybe you can't do maybe you know,you feel awkward in social situation. Everybody's got something. That's why we havein the fourth category of the fifth step, that four step that we're going totalk about next week. One of the categories made category, one ofthe main categories, is fear and most of US happening anyway. When wesincerely take such a position, all sorts of remarkable things follow. My friendDion and who has got fifty two years of sobriety, and Andrew was atone of my talks and Andrew said that my talk was out of a outof a ten. He grated me. One of the guys here greats melike a show. You're like the gum show. And after one of thetalks he told me, you know, Steve, I really really love you. You know that that's always a bad where to start comes year and hesaid, you know, I really really love you, but you talked tonightwas a four out of ten. Okay, so I guess he didn't you know, I'm not going to be hired next week or something of that.And then my friend Dion called me and he's got fifty two years and hesaid, you know, Steve, I never really heard the way you sitremarkable. I never really had anybody key on the word remarkable as many timesas you said remarkable. That's exactly what I needed last night, and wejust been of the step serious. I needed to hear about the word remarkablein every talk that you're going to listen to an alcoholics anonymously for the restof your life. One day, in a time, there's going to besomething that's just for you from a speaker.

God designs talks individually. Right herethat night this man will fifty two years of surpride. He needed tohear the word remarkable. That's how God works. Everybody, at every timeneeds to be on point for what the next remarkable moment is. I betyou TAMMI JOE had some remarkable moments this week. Go into a very,very serious, terrible surgery where she only went in for a little bit ofthe surgery and to turn out she needed extensive knee not replacement but almost replacement. She was in horrific painting. She had to go back to the doctorsbecause she thought maybe she had a blood coot she was in so much pain. It was a very, very, very hard recovery. She's still inthe very beginning stages of it. I bet you she has some remarkable storiesas a result of the things she experiences. Week, every day of our sobrietyis remarkable. Now, whether we're there to pay attention and write downthe remarkable in our mind, that's on you, that's on me, that'son us. Every situation that we go through from now on has the earmarka remarkable and you know what that is. Brother says this. You know that'scalled when you when you anticipate something that you can't see and you knowthat tomorrow is going to bring something remarkable. You know that's called that's right.That's right. Faith is not the evidence of things seen, but thatthe hope of things that are not seen, the hope of things that didn't happen. Yet I really have faith that if Carl am surrenders this time,that he'll make it through the fourth of the month. I really have faiththat if he surrenderes, that I'll happen. I have faith that that could happen. I've so much faith that has going to happen I'm actually going tospend time within this month when to get him a haircut, which he obviouslyneeds, and and I'm going to spend some time with them. I've hadfaith that he's going to get through the form, but it's going to takea lot of action when we get to the twelve step. As you know, in the book of James has says that faith without works is dead.So what we do in alcoholics anonymous meetings is we take our faith and weput into action. We work every single meeting, chair person, person atthe door, person picking the doing the money, person saying hello, peoplebehind the counter. These are all faith in action parts of it. whichhappens to do with the twelve step? Or what does that have to dowith the Thursday? Let me tell you what I have to do with thethird steps. You're off the hook. You're tooling alter hand like that.It's not you anymore. Every single day you wake up, you do athird stepperer. Doesn't have to be V third stepper. This is an exampleof the third step. Pray. The third step prayer that we have inthis book is an example of an amazing third stepper. You know what otheramazing third step prayers are? Chris is not so amazing because it's from narcoticsanonymous. But what is the what is the third step of narcotics anonymous?We take my will in my life. Show me how to live. GuyBeing my recovery. Okay, does it matter? It's a third step.Watch this. I can't, you can. I'm choosing to let you. That'sa third step. My life is unmanageable. Your God, help mewith it. That's a third step. What do you see? Another thirdstep, God, I offer myself to the to build with me and todo with me as that will relieve me of the bondage of self that Imade. Better do. THY will take away my difficulties. That victory overthe victory over these difficulties, even though that word is not there, butvictory over these make their witness to those. I would help of that power andI love and THY way of life.

May I do, I will always, and I add an amen. Doesn't have it. It doesn't havean ameny big, but what does that mean? So big deals and Amen. He means I agree with God. That's what a mending. Before youget freaked out, it's not church. No AMENDA. I agree with God. Wow, do you hear that? Any Amen Means I agree with God. And you know what? When I say a man after the third step, that's in the big book, after the third step prayer, you knowwhat it means. I'm agreeing with that prayer with God. I'm agreeing.That's right. I am agreeing with this prayer, that I'm agreeing with Godthat please take away my difficulty so that it could show all the people howmagnificent you are. That's the third step. You going through trials and tribulations bringingup to God. You're having situations in your life it's in God's plan. I don't know why it's in God's playing, but it's God's plan.Well, we lost the baby, our only child, our only birth child, before we got to adopt our beautiful son, Joshua, who's delight ofmy life, who's so God bless you, so precious tonight on the phone.Joshua's precious to night on the phone, which is rare. He's not abig phone guy, phone kid, but it's so cute tonight when welost the child and we were in complete and utter devastation of my house andone of the people in the program told me to pray for the acceptance ofGod's will. I needed to pray for the acceptance of God's will. Verywise, very wise. It's not that God made us lose our child,but God's will is that we have free will down here and I just haveto pray for the acceptance of that. where it says on page four andnineteen, or four hundred and seventeen, okage four hundred and forty nine,of the big book, where it says that acceptance is the answer to allmy problems. Today it is definitely the answer to a lot of my problems. Today. If Guy Lose a child, if you lose a parent, ifyou use the kid got forbid, you have to pray for the acceptancebecause if not, it'll destroy you. There's a gentleman here in the twelvestep house. Used to be in the back room on Friday nights and Iused to own a photo studio and he came in with his beautiful wife andhis beautiful daughter to the fore Lord El swap shop and I would took familyphotos of them, beautiful family. His daughter was abducted, she was killed, she was chopped out in pieces. It's something you cannot even possibly comprehend. I know I can't. How this man got through it sober is everyday he prayed for the acceptance, to accept this and for forgiveness for themurderer. When we talk about the third step, we are not talking aboutsomething that comes easy. It's sometimes coming a great price. What was thecost for that gentleman? Everything? What was the payout for that gentleman?He stayed sober and his story has helped maybe thousands or tens of thousands ofpeople that know him. The price for some of the other people in hisfamily. They could not accept it and they could not turn it over andbecause they could not turn it over, they could not remain sober. You'rejust saying the magnitude or the importance of this step. Now when they sayit's the new and triumphant arch to which we pass to freedom, there's nothing. You cannot get around it. Now...

...there are people, and I wantyou to I want to know. They're people that stays sober a long timewithout the third step. You can stay sober the rest of your life.About their it. As a matter of fact, you could stay sober therest of your life with one step. But that doesn't mean you're going tobe happy, joyous and free. You're going to be sober and dry.I'm not going to see miserable. I'm go. You have to determine ifthat's the life you want. I could never do it. I tried,I got I tried. I really tried real hard. I had three goodyears of sobriety and God and doing the right thing and I had four yearsof sober. Sober almost killed me. Sober got me so dry that thefirst time I took my first drink and nobody was saying it, but theywere like, you need a drink. People in Aa were like thinking,you probably could have a drink. They didn't say it, but that's howunhealthy I was. That's only working the first step. So you could staysober, but you're going to become miserable. My opinion. I'm not saying thatthat's that's totally does that's not in the big book. So listen this. More and more we were we become interested in seeing what we can contributeto life as we felt new powerflow in. Raise your handed you as some newpowerflow in into your life, regardless of how many years you haven't doesn'tmatter. Don't you want new power? Don't you want to wake up tomorrowmorning at five it? I'm not saying five in but I'm just saying whatevertime you wake up. Don't you want to wake up in the morning?Open up the big book, go to page eighty five, eighty six,eighty seven and eighty eight, and it says on awakening. Read on awakeningand then all of a sudden, feel the spirit of the universe come intoyou and just know that, no matter what happens during the day, you'rewalking with God, hand in hand with the spirit of the und he evenlisten, broken hand in hand with the spirit of the universe. I don'tknow about you, but any life run on self, will or run onself is is dumed for at least misery doesn't mean you're going to I'm notsure. This is all not about drinking. This is about living. And then, of course, it says in the millions of student in the manytimes, I apologize, in the many times in the big book, ittalks about seeking spiritual guidance from other people. It talks about seeing where religious peopleare right. It talks about doing this spiritual step with another person.It talks about having people. It says we found it very desirable to takethis spiritual step with an understanding person such as your wife, best friend orspiritual visor. Do you know why it says this? I'll tell you why. Because in Dr Bob's house, how the entire program started is people wentthere, drunks went there, and they were was staying in rooms in thehouse and in the morning they would come down and they would do Bible readingsand spiritual readings and readings from all these different books together in a group.Drunks, you don't happen to these drugs. What some of them stayed sober,some of them drink. Bill W came home to his wife after oneof these retreats and what it his wife's Today. And listen, this isa waste of my time. Nobody stays sober. She looked over her previouslydrunk husband. Is Yours. You are it may not work for everybody,but was working for bill because bill was carrying the message to the next firstwe'll get into twelve steen. I want to come back a little bit onfaith. How many people bristle with antagonism when, Oh, Hey, Andrew, how many people bristle with antagonism, which means you like you hate theword church, Raigi Regine, you hate...

...anything about religion. Religion, Reggian'sokay, really okay. I see you at I emily. I saw youthe quarter. But if I told you that if you went to church,if I told you you went to church, the payoff would be a remarkable life. You may open your mind up two things that you work previously opento. Well, if I tell you that if you go to alcoholics anonymousand the develop a relationship with God, that the big book says that youare going to have an amazing life, not based on the stuff you have, but based on the things that you have inside. That's what remarkable means. Would you sign up for that? Well, some of you say yes, but some of you don't do it because you just come to meetings andyou hope to get it by as Moses, which is your hope to program isgoing to come through the chair and he doing the ASS. That's asMoses, the chemical founders's but that's not what this is the same. It'ssae. Then it's going to take faith and action, and so I'm excitedabout that because I'll tell you why. I'll tell you why I'll get excitedabout the faith stem because Jerry starts off every day he's faithful, very faithful. In the morning he starts off on fire. I get these texts atzero am in the morning, on fire text. You can tell he's onfire. That's not my natural go to, my natural go Jew is. Myfire is out when I wake up in the morning. I'm not amorning person. If I had to rely on emotion, if I don't relysolely on emotion, I'd be done at six hundred five. My Day wouldjust be going down from if I needed to do this on self propulsion,because I have a feeling of being excited about getting into the day. MyDay would just go down from six five or seven five, depending on thehourly up. But either one of those things, I'm not determined. MyDay does not determine my my ability to be able to have a good energy. You know what? It determines my ability to have faith, and faiththe company by action. I believe at all times that what this says isthat God could and would if he saw. I try to stay out of thisneighborhood as much as possible because this neighborhood is a bad neighborhood and thistheigh would give me bad information. What I was six years clean and Ihad not tried any drugs. Obviously I was six years clean. I wasvery into bodybuilding. Please use your imagination. Is Twenty years ago and bodybuilding waslike my whole life, and I went to one of the guys inthe gym who was in great shape, and I said to him, whatis a way that at night time I could still build muscle when I sleep? which which bodybuilds have these drugs? It's not a joke, it's atrue and he told me about a drug that bodybuilders use, that it helpsyou get into a very, very, very, very very deep sleep,which then helps the budy to release its own natural world's hormone. By thetime you wake up in the morning you have more muscle structure, your Testosshones a little bit better and that during the nighttime you'll get nine to tenhours sleep or is then again makes you strong righte at and he said theonly problem with this is it's not like it's made. It from a company'smade from a guy named Julio. He...

...works at Home Depot and he makesit in big bats in his garage and one of these galons and he showedme one of the gowns. They didn't have any labels on, like ana warning, just a clear bottle, the clear milk bottle. He said, I could get this from Julio. That this one problem with it's notan exact science. What we recommend is you do one capful. Now,remember, I'm not telling anything. I wasn't trying to get high, Iwas trying to build my body. This is where my meant. This ishow this out a mental case. I am he said the only problem withthis is some people in the capful it's too much and they can go intocardiac arrest. Some people it's just fine, they have a great night sleep.Other people pass away. Six years clean. I'm not living in agodly principles. I'm already taken testosterone. I start to weigh out the options. Really good muscle structure. Possibly die. I'll take one joke please. WhenI run my life, no matter how many years sober I am,me running my life. Bad decisions happened. When I let God run my life, good decisions happen. It doesn't always mean the outcome is what Iwant. My Tent Year we lost our child. That was not the outcomeI wanted. I've been through bankruptcy twice. Not Not bankrupcy with the courts,but bankruptcy when you go into the bank and there's no money in there. To me that seems just as serious. In sobriety, you understand these arenot outcomes that I wanted. But with God's health, God's straight andfaith in God, according to the big book of alcoholics, anonymous, accordingto the people that have been here before me, I see that if Ikeep on keeping on, that this two will pass. You hear this,chef Chris, it's going to pass. Man, whatever you need to doright now in your sobriety, you're not going to pick up over it.It's not going to be an easy road. Right now. It's going to takea leap of faith. All faith leaps. Our faith, our leapsof faith. All faith leaps are leaps of faith. People said I needto have blind faith. That's what faith is. If it wasn't blind,it'd be facts. It's saying we have it or taken a leap of faithevery single time. He coming to this meeting. And remember last thing onto lead with before we go into the next week's what we'll be here nextyou, God willing, and we have like a million mediens, but hopefullywe'll be able to do the mediens in our in a in a good waythat we can still get to the test, still get you, still get tothe four step. Right. All right, we're going to do thebest weekend. We'll do the very listen, it's still going to be an amazingmeeting. It's going to be amazing, okay, but this is what Iwant to leave you last word. Our Father, our heavenly father,will never let us down. Please don't leave before the miracle happens. Thebest is yet to come. God bless you guys. I.

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