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Episode 142 · 2 months ago

Stevie B. Step 3 at Life Is Good Group 11/17/2022

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Step 3 from Stevie B. Step Series at the Life Is Good Group, Boca Raton, FL started November 2022.

This picture which has happened now. Thomas, who spends every single meeting making other people feel good, welcoming everybody, never changes the way that he approaches every newcomer, every old timer, shows up consistently and gets to pick up his tenure Madion. Then we watch a husband and wife for the first time. I had the blessing of being there when Marian gave Peter his first medallion while of their marriage. I happen to be there. Was it thirty where Marion gave Peter his thirty four year median in their first time in their marriage, and then tonight for her husband to give her her first medallion of thirty three years in their first year of marriage. I mean, you understand the magnitude of this thing that we just signed up. Or when people tell you that you're gonna have a life beyond your wildest dreams, I want you to know something. It's not a probability. It is absolutely going to happen. Now, that doesn't mean it's gonna be all the time rainbows and giggles and perfection. A friend of ours a couple of weeks ago that we have been praying he's here tonight, I'm not gonna mention by first day, the head is kidney taking out. Two weeks later, he's here in a meeting. So when we say that you're gonna have a life beyond your wildest dreams, that you're putting your hand in God's hand and letting him do the driving and then watch where he takes you. You want to have an amazing relationship, You'll have an amazing relationship. You want to have an amazing relationship at work, You'll have an amazing relationship at work. It's going to be your choice on whether you're gonna follow these simple suggestions that are in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, which is gonna lead you to have a relationship with God, which is gonna lead you to a life that you're not even gonna think about dream king anymore. And I know that there's some new people here because I invited a gentleman that I just met last night to be here tonight, and he's in I think day two, and I want to say welcome, welcome, because this is gonna be the best decision. This is the best decision that you've ever made. Now tonight we're gonna make some other decisions. I want to just make sure that if if you do not know the third step prayer by heart, because you raise your hand right now so we can give you a card um, so that's gonna be taken care of it. If you don't know the third step prayer by heart, I want you to have a card tonight so that when we do it together, you feel part of this whole experience. Last week we spoke about step two. I can tell you I'm a little bit nervous, Okay. I got some realist, serious heavyweights that I respect very very much say no way here, and I got like my mentor of theirp like Bob over here that it's a little bit nerv wracking. I'll tell you. But when I come to a place like this and I know that everybody is here for the same reason, someone said outside something that really uh and I'm and I'm don't feel bad. I don't want you to feel bad. It's not so you feel bad. They say that. They said they called me like a rock star, like he's Stevie. I am a rock star. I smoke crack a lot before I got here, and I don't forget that there are no big shots in alcoholics. Anonymous one shot. We're all shot. Okay, there's nobody anyone that thinks they're the deal. The Bible says that they won't wind up the story. The first will be last, the last will be first. So believe me, I don't come here tonight thinking that I'm a rock star. I come here tonight thinking that there's some people in here that all want to get together. We're gonna talk about God, we're gonna have some laughs, we're gonna talk about the big Book, which you need to be in. It should encourage you to go home and open up the chapter that we're gonn to talk about...

...tonight. I should hope that when I say page a D five eighty six, eighty seven and eighty eight, and I'm gonna say that the whole series for the next I think we're gonna be here for the next thirty two weeks. We're gonna keep saying that, and you're gonna go home, and you're gonna want to open up page eight five eighty six, eighties seven eighty eight. I want to encourage you to change while you're in this series. Pete said something to me a little while back. He said, there, you're just looking for information or you want transformation, and I'm gonna ask you that question. If you're here tonight for information, you can download it all. There's enough information on the internet that you could do this program at home. But I want you to know it's not a self help program. This is a weed program. I don't know if you can tell the uh the excitement in the air tonight, but it to me. And I learned a new word last week. I just want to share with you, just because, just in case you think you know everything, I certainly don't. And I went and I was told I was in the car with Maddie and I told Sheldon and the energy was was pal patable in the room? And he said, no, the word is palpable. I'm fifty five years old. I've never heard the word palpable. I'm from New York. We use the word palatable. That's it. You could taste the energy inside the room. I told him. But he's from mant you're all, he's very intelligent. So he told me he sent me the word palpable, palpable, whatever it is. I am so excited to be part of a room of people that are looking for transformation. Can you taste it? Can you taste it. This is not a non drinking program, and yet you're going to experience the uh, the benefit of not ever having to take another drink again, even if you want to. Tonight, I'm gonna tell you a story that is the heartbreaking story myself and um my mom is watching from New York, Hey, Mom, and my dad's watching from heaven. May God rest his soul. And like Pete and Mary in the first time, they're picking up their Madians as a as a married couple. This is the first time I'm doing a step series, um that my dad is not here on planet Earth. We'll maybe the second time. Second time, and I'm gonna tell you a story that's very, very heart wrenching to me. And it's the saddest day of my life. And I'm not going to tell you too for the effect. I'm gonna tell it to you because this is what happened. But I need to back up a little bit. I need to go back up to Step two and I want to tell you that. And I hope that the meeting is going to continue to invite me back here because I'm not sure if we're gonna be able to pack this into twelve weeks. I'm not I can't guarantee that because we're backing up to step two. Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us the Saturday, and I didn't get to tell you this great story last week. I'm in Lisa's house. I relapsed at seven years. I thought I could drink. I knew I couldn't do drugs. That was very obvious. Everything on my first step is drugs. Washington Heights, his drugs being rolled up in a carpet, that's drugs. All that stuff is drugs. Okay, so I got that. You know you. I told you the story about my eyes, and you may think that you don't know I got shot in my eye. But also one of the problems is I would peep outside uh the rooms for days on end, and if you have one eye and the other eyes trying to look, that's what happened to my eyes. And yet I didn't tell you about after when I relapsed because I thought I could have alcohol, and I thought alcohol was not a drug. I was convinced that alcohol was not drug. And I had an amazing sponsor. I had two amazing sponsors. UM I had uh John Williams May God rescissul and Myron as If, the locksmith of Browd County, May God rescis soul. And I had great sponsors around me, my original sponsored Jerry Bear, great people around me, and every one of them pointed...

...me to meetings that told me that I could never drink again, one day at a time and as long as I admitted to my innermost self. This is what I want to share with you because I could tell by looking at this crowd there's a lot of people in here that have done drugs. You know, it's not I'm not not disparaging, but from here you can tell. I just want to say that. And I thought that drugs were different than alcohol, and I did not think that alcohol would ever bring me to a bottom that drugs. I was convinced. I told you the story that last week when I was on my honeymoon and I saw fine Wine councilor I just spoke to me define wine that my wife. We were at a table and and people were drinking fine wine. They needed to breathe first. I had never seen that it was in a decanter. It had a breathing tube out of it, like a bod and people were not drinking. And I said to the food serve, why are the people not drinking the wine? And they they she said, they're drinking fine wine that needs to breathe. First, I never heard of such a thing, and I at that moment I decided I was not powerless over alcohol. It took two years until two years from that time, from my fifth year till my seventh year, not believing that I was powerless over alcohol. And what I want to share with you tonight is we're gonna but just back up the step one for a second. Is that you need to admit to your innermos self that you're powerless over alcohol or you will absolutely drink again someday when you're not watching, and don't say things like I'm not even thinking about drinking. Guess what nobody's thinking about drinking until they're drinking, and then you're like, I can't believe it. I wasn't even thinking about drinking. That's how alcoholism works. Just like that, I wasn't thinking about taking a gun and giving it to a young man to shoot at me until I did it. And at that moment it sounded like a great idea. Until five minutes later when I lost my eye. Most stupid thoughts are done in the moment. But God wants to give us this cushion between our alcoholism that can have us do things that are to end our lives. Are terrible decisions, and he wants to give us this cushion. But it's gonna have to start with the with the knowledge of the innermost self that you're powerless over alcohol. And I didn't have that, so I didn't believe it, and I took a drink, and then the drink took me to places that I never even knew existed. And I'm not gonna get into the war stories of the club scene and everything that I didn't even know existed down here, and all the things, terrible things that happened because everybody had terrible things happened to them. That's why we came into the program. It's fun, and then it's fun with problems, and then it's just problems. And I hope that you've had enough problems that you finally feel like you've arrived at a solution. But there are even people that can get off on floors that are higher than other people, and you can if you're here tonight. It doesn't matter if you haven't had any bottom, because this could be your bottom just by coming here tonight. And you could say, you know what, I believe what that man is saiving. I want to lie beyond my wildest dreams, and I don't believe that alcohol is going to be the way that I can do that. And so the second step, so I'm living in Lisa's house. I don't want to live in a halfway house. I have no idea I'm going to live in a halfway house because a couple of weeks earlier I lived in a full house until my wife threw me out. And then this amazing man by the name of Jeff Weinstein, who is an amazing man to me, and I want you to guys, to keep him in prayer. He had almost a near fatal motorcycle accident in two weeks ago, so please keep him in prayer. He's doing okay, but he needs prayers. Uh was with Lisa, and he came to the hospital that...

I was in and he invited me to come live at Liberty House in Fort Lauradelle. And there was the last place I wanted to be on the whole earth. Big bed with my new wife or living with stinky feet. Mason and Big Eddie and Todd from from Texas, and it was the fate that I thought was worth the death. And I reached out to my first sponsor that's from Manhattan. He's a tough Jewish guy that was living in San Francisco, and I reached out to him from the de tops after Jeff had had come and asked me if I wanted to come live with in Lisa's house and I and I succumbed because I said absolutely not. And then he said, well, here's a restraining order. You can't go home. And I said, well, tell me about the program. And I called on my first sponsor, by the name of Jerry Bear, and I said, Jerry tell me. I said, Jared, tell me what to do. I I relapsed. And when I said I relapsed, I paused because I thought he'd be shocked, because mine, you, I just had seven years and I go, Dared, tell me what to do because I just relapsed. And his words, like he was waiting for years to say it, just rolled off his lips in a magical way. He said that shocking, Thank you, Buck, And he said, why don't you do something different this time, Steve, why don't you just stay out of your own way? Well, what does that even mean? He said? Why don't you start praying on your knees inside the detox? He said, Stevie, if I invited you over my house and you came over my house and you sat down at my dinner table and you started eating the food and you didn't say please, and then you got up from the table and you left and you didn't say thank you. Do you think I would ever invite you back again to eat at my house? I said, no, Jerry, of course not. He said. Why would you be in God's world one day without begging for the gift of sobriety in the morning, and at the end, when you've accomplished that through His grace, why would you not be getting down on your knees and saying to God thank you? I said, Jerry, I'm cat. We only really do it in mass He said, listen to me. You're already starting with nonsense. You'd get down on your knees inside that detox, and you asked God to keep you cleaning sober, and you at the end of the day, if you're successful, you thank him That was January third of two thousand and two. I had just thrown away my entire sobriety seven years, my new wife, my only wife. She served me with a restraining order. I'm gonna go live in a half way house. I'm in a detox. That's but really it was a psych ward. The whole my whole life was was down the toilet and I couldn't take a sober breath. My beautiful mom that's watching had to come out of retirement with my dad and may God rest his soul and drive down here during nine eleven week after they just lost one of our closest friends in the in the tower crash to come save my life. At thirty two years old, I had thrown away my entire life because I wanted to have a drink of fine wine. I was ready to throw everything away because I had not recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body in those seven years. How did I not recover from a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body. I did not work the steps. I did not surrender, I did not follow directions. I'm a sharp you know, half Jewish, half Italian kid from New York and I figured the steps are great and but not for me. I'm going to do some of them, and I got the results exactly that you don't recover unless you work the program. Now, are there people that don't work the steps that stay sober? Of course there is. There's people that do gold sorts.

Are things? Do I want to be happy, joyous and free? Do I want to be people attracted to me because of the energy and and the light that I bring? Or do I want to be miserable? But I want to be a Crueton eater, which I'll tell you about at the end of the talk. Bob, we don't believe in Cruton eaters. Do we wanted to be a Crueton eater? I want to I want to have the whole Buffett. And so what happened was I relapsed living in that house. I'm thirty days clean, I'm all my knees in the morning and I'm on my knees at night. And I'm turning my whale in my life onto the care of God, best of my ability, best of my buildy. That's all the twenty seconds in the twice six a night. And I decided I'm gonna go get loaded again. I look at my watch, it's eight fifty. Mason and Eddie and Todd are gonna leave the house, and I'm gonna go on a run because I've developed some type of junkie superpowers in those dirty days where I can where I can like go out for just a couple hours in my mind and just turned the switch off, shower shade brushed my teeth. And then when everyone comes home to the recovery house and be like, hey, how was your day? But I got no money, and I'm a guy that does not go out on a run with no money. Some of you, I really give you a lot of respect. You go out with nothing, You do no planning, You just go out and broken. And I called my wife, who had a restraining order against me, and I said to her, sweetheart, and she said, what do you want? You're not supposed to call. And I said, could you send me a hundred dollars for a cell phone? Because of my sponsor lives in California? Know whatever did D D D? And she tells me to hold on, and I think she's checking the bank account and it turned out that she had joined the program of Alan On. It seems like some people on this side. Don't know what allan On is. Alan On is a secret society that teaches people on how to handle our nonsense. They give code words. There's the three c's that there's a whole thing that my wife had joined without asking my opinion, and she called her sponsor, and her sponsor said, give him the money. I'm only a couple of weeks sober, thirty days sober. They loaded my card up with a hundred and ninety. To me, I think that's wrong. They set me up to go get it. This is what her sponsor said to her. I have anyone's here in the Allen I I don't think this is part of the by laws. The sponsor said to him, let's find out if the bum is full of it now and we'll go through with the divorce papers. To me, that doesn't sound very loving. And they load my card up with thirty days clean with a hundreds, which for a druggy is like a billion dollars. But I had just gotten up off my knees. You see what's crazy thing about it is inside Stevie is good Steve and bad Steve. Bad Steve wants to come out and go crazy, and good Steve wants to go to a meeting and follow directions and do the steps and read the book and pray on my knees and help people and clean house and help others. He wants to do all that stuff. A bad Steve is always seeing to him not right now. And I just gotten up off my knees. And that right when I got up off my knees, I made the decision to go get high. If you can imagine, I just prayed to stay sober and got up off my knees and made a decision to get hot. Why I hadn't changed yet. I had enthusiasm, I had a desire, but I hadn't done any of the work yet. And so I went on my plan. I got the...

...hundred and nine nine dollars. I ran over to the Sprint store. And this is where the Step two talk is. This what I want to share with you about you. See, God is always working whether you believe in him or not. He believes in you. And I run to the Sprint store. I've never been to the Sprint store before. I didn't have a sprint bone. I run the Sprint store and say the guy behind the guy said, man, I need to be out here in fifteen minutes, and I need to have the cheapest cell phone you have, because I knew that I had to call Jeff and Lisa and my wife and tell them that I was at a meeting. Otherwise they would the whole jig would be up and they would know I'm using And this is what God did. The guy behind the counter at the Sprint store stands up and he says to me, Stevie b, it's so good to see you. I saw you yesterday at the Victory A meeting. Welcome back. We've been waiting for you. I mean, how do you even write that stuff? The guy at the Sprint store where I'm gonna go get loaded to use it, that is a paraphernalia prop in my whole rage him that I'm gonna do. He says that he's Stevie me. It's so good to see you. And God did for me what I couldn't do for myself. And that's a step two. You see. We think sometimes step two is what you do in a classroom or what you're doing out of your step book. But step two a lot of times, as you do something different, you pray, you ask God for something different, and then he gives you something different, and that's a slender threat. That's right, that Paul talks about, that Paul Be talks about that tall guy Jewish Drew stood up from Boca and he said to me, let's go out and have a cup of coffee. And he bought me a cup of coffee. And I didn't need to take a drink that day. And eleven months later when my wife invited me to go back and leave a liberty house and come back and live in our big bed, and she pulled the restraining off order away and I came home to live in our house. I decided on the first day after I prayed on my knees right in the morning, my wife's cookie downstairs, the coffees going. Gratitude is going. You know, Joe, It's like, we got back, and we're like, you can't believe it. We got I got eleven months I'm back in the house. Is unbelievable. I come up with this idea because every single time that you're about to make a breakthrough, the lower power wants to hold you back and disgrace you. If you believe in God, you gotta understand there's things out there that are not God. And I went and I came up with this brilliant idea to turn the mattress over because I hadn't been there in a year. And when I turned the mattress over, there was my stash from last year that I had left there in a blackout. But I had just been got off my knees. And this time different than the last time God took over. You see, haven't recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind about it. This that that can happen the moment you step into this work. Now I'm not saying fully recovered, because I wasn't fully recovered yet. But I looked at my stats, and there was never a time that I had ever looked at my stats that I didn't use it. And God's power reached down from heaven. The Big Book talks about the spirit, God's spirit, and the spirit filled me and I was able to call downstairs and say, Sandy, you gotta come up here. And she was crying, and I was crying because the first time I knew I wasn't full of it, because I've been full of it my whole life. We took this stuff and we rolled it up and we got it out, and we put it in the bath. We put in the garbage in public and and I took a sigh of relief. I want you to know I was well on my way. I started praying, I started doing the work. I got myself a sponsor. Down here. I met a guy by the name of Russell Spats. I went to a meeting with him. He pulled out the Bible. I've never seen such a thing. I was like, what, you can't pull out the Bible? He did? Nobody shot him. Nobody ye. I was like, unbelievable. There's like like like the God of the universe...

...is like that's the same God. Like the God in the universe is the same God of the Big Book. I thought it was like two different gods and those it was like an a a God, and then there's like a Bible God, and then there's like God God, and then there's Church God. It turns out something I'm gonna see you so that you're not gonna believe it's the same God. I've been praying to a god of my misunderstanding during my great sponsorship time, because my great sponsors were asking me to do work. I didn't want to do a lot of work, so I would get lower sponsors. I get like the lower sponsors. So during the first sobriety I had, I would get like lower sponsors, sponsors that really didn't believe in the book. They weren't chopping wood and carrying water as we've been taught. They were like more like just looking at the wood and thinking about the water. They weren't doing a lot of work. And so what happened to me is I would always get no results. But this time I started following people and doing the steps, flying out to California. I had two sponsors at the time, one by the name of Jerry Bear, one Russell Spats down here, who's not specifically no, not hand holding me in the steps. My sponsor out there in California. Would fly out there and do the steps with him. And this is what happened. I got sober, and life was amazing, and the promises came true. And you guys told me the promise, you listen to this. I came in exactly the same way as all of a selfishness, self saidedness, that is what we think the root of our troubles. This is on page sixty two, driven by a hundred forms of fear, self delusion, self seeking, self pity. We step on the toes of our fellows, and they retaliate. Sometimes they heard us seemingly without provocation. But we and verily find at some time in the past we have made decisions based on self, which later placed us in a position to be heard. My whole life was based around me. What do I think about me? What do you think about Let's forget about me, Let's talk about you know, all about me on my honeymoon where I should be looking at my beautiful wife before I relapsed, alcoholism was so much over me. I was thinking on my honeymoon, this is the truth. When we were sitting there in Emerald Goszie's new restaurant, and I'm supposed to be looking at her beauty. I looked in the mirror and I said, man, she got a pretty good catch. Can you imagine how delusion I am? I'm thinking about me on our honeymoon. I was stark, raving alcoholic, and I hadn't had a drink in five years. You see, I was a start graving alcoholic when I was twelve years old, and I gave another kid a gun and said, shoot at me. I was a start raving alcoholic when I bit the girl and Mrs McGillick Cutty's class at five years old, and I was kicked out of nursery school. I've been a start raving alcoholic my whole life, and that will return any time that I don't place my hand in God's hand. Listen to this. This is my favorite page of the Big Book, but one of them, this is the holl And Wyant it. First of all, we had to quit playing God. It didn't work. Why why do we Why do we come to that that sentence? We have to quit playing God? Why do we even get here? Why are you even here tonight? Ask yourself that question. You know why what your life was? It didn't work? That's the bottom line. You already had your chance, You've already sailed your ship. You already were the main actor in your play. How did it go? No good? So it's not like you're coming. Most people don't come here on a high and say, you know what I heard. There's a fun meeting on a Thursday night in Boca. Most people have destroyed their lives. That's what we haven't come, Rayge, and you destroyed your life. Okay, raise your hand if you have charges against you one way or another. This is focus.

So half the room is honest. Half the room it's so full of it. You really are. You're a bunch of liars of voca. Next, we decided because it didn't work playing God. Next, we decided that hereafter in this drama of life. Life is a drama, but you don't have to participate it. Other people are spinning around, they're they're getting crazy. You don't have to be part of that playing You watch how the people spinning around. You're like, I got a meeting to go to tonight. I got a coffee commitment, I got a great or commitment. What do you doing time? We're getting whacked. I'm going to meet. We don't have to participate in the drama that everyone else is because we have been shown a new way of life, a new set of glasses that chuckling. He would say, we have a new pair of glasses. God was going to be our director. Here, here's where we get it's gonna get excited. He is the prince of him. We are his agents. He is the father, and we are as children. I want you to just pause in that sentence because some of us not mean. I had an amazing dad, but some of you had some terrible dads. And I'm sorry for that, and God, sorry for that. That was not his intention your dad. I would not what you would call leave it to be for dads. But this is the most beautiful thing. The Big Book tells us that we have a new father that's perfect, and he's our father and we're gonna have a new one and we're gonna be his children, and he's our father and not amazing and that awesome. Most good ideas are simple. In this concept was the keystone and the new and arch and new and triumphant arch to which we passed through the freedom. People that know the Big Book will tell you the arch, the keystone is the most important stone in the in the in the building. And they get all into it and it's all important, is all important. But you know what the sentence means. This is the most important thing that you need to know. We have a new director and it's not you. Isn't that great? What what should my decision to be today? No one's asking, I think nobody asks, Well, I please don't ask. That's why we always revert back to page eight five and six eighty seven and a upon awakening, let us think about the twenty four hours a day ahead. We we are careful not to think about our our ideas. We give it to God. We're gonna go over that next week for some weeks. When we sincerely took such a position about having what position? He's the father, where his children, he's the director. We're right, that's the position. All sorts of remarkable things followed. Dion says to me one time, I just love me. I think he's gonna be here, hopefully in a couple weeks from now. He just shared last week at the West Side men's group, fifty three years just amazing. He calls to me. Help. He goes, Yo, Steve, I go, what what's going on? He goes, well, what did you say about remarkable? I go, well, remarkable all things all. If we stay close to God and performance well, well, all sorts of remarkable things will falling. Because is that you shure? He should go its It says, it's remarkable. Listen, raise your hand if you want remarkable, well, okay, then raise your hand. If you want mediocre, raise your hand if you want to have a remarkable life, very lazy group. I want to share with you. I want remarkable. When I would go into Washington Heights, I wouldn't go up to Choot and go give me this stuff that's been wanted down fifty. I want the stuff that doesn't even resemble the stuff I'm buying. No, I said, give me the stuff that just got caught off the side of the building. I have always been looking for remarkable. If I could get a double shot, I on four shots. I want an iced tea.

I want a Long Island iced tea. I want everything there is. Thank you, Jeff. When we sincerely took such a position, all thoughts of remarkable things followed. We had a new employer, being all powerful, he God provided what we needed if we kept close to him and performed his work. Well. That's what our goal is, and alcoholics anonymous is to stay close to God and perform his work well. Help clean house, help others, Trust God, get involved in this thing. Chop wood, carry water. Don't be lazy. You want remarkable, You're gonna need to stay close to God and perform his work well. So I'm eight years sober and we want to have a baby, and we can't get pregnant, and then we get pregnant, and then we lose the baby, and I don't understand it. I'm staying close to God. I'm performing his work well also to remarkable things are happening. But we can't have a baby. And then we lose our only baby. And then we joined an adoption agency and we get kicked out of the adoption agency because of my record. And we have a baby room built and we don't have a baby. And Bob Heaton, may God rest his soul, who passed away three weeks ago or four weeks ago, told me about a woman in Boca that may be able to help us. And she came down to the house, but I knew she was Jewish. Her name is Mindy, she lives in Boca. And by then we're like over the top Christians. We got statues, we got paintings, we got holy water drizzling from the ceiling. And I say to Sandy, I go, Sweetart, we should probably maybe take Giant Jesus up off the wall, because when Minny comes down, I don't want to seem over the top. Put the T shirt away, Let's take the pumper stick and turn the car around. And once he comes in the house. I want to make a good appearance. My wife said, we're not going to pretend who were not. We got on our knees and we said to God, God, if you want us to have a baby, you're gonna do this. We believe in you. We made a decision to follow you. I don't know why we lost our baby. Ernie Richardson told us to pray for the acceptance of God's will. Some well meaning people in a told us that God only gives you what you can handle. Don't ever, that's when someone says that, don't get upset with them, but just tell them thanks for sharing, but don't receive that. It's not that God gives you dead baby or God. That's not what God does. That's not God's character. What happens is that bad things happen and God gives you the strength to get through it. And she comes down. We get off our knees. She comes down and she reads our testimony. She looks at giant Jesus up on the wall and she says, do you think that God gave you another chance? And we said we know he did. And she said, so, how can I not give you another chance? And she signs off on our home study, which is a big deal because nobody would sign off on a home study because of my record. You see, I want you to know something. When God says that something's gonna happen, no man, no man, could get in the way of that. When God says you're gonna have a driver's license, no state can get in the way of that. When God says you're gonna operate on people, and you could. You you used to be a drunk and you have felony charges. If God says that's gonna be your profession, that's gonna be your profession. And God told us that we were gonna have a baby, and we eventually went and had a baby. We adopted...

...a beautiful baby boy that I'm gonna tell you about in the weeks to come. But the most gorgeous I'm not gonna share with you yet because that's gonna be part of the next story. But I flew out to California and I did this thing called the Third Step. I went into I saw my sponsor and I didn't know what was going on. He brought me in a hotel room and he said, we're gonna turn our life on our will over to the care of God. And he opened up the Big Book and he said, we were now at step three. He said, Steve, you're gonna hear some nonsense in alcoholics anonymous about two three frogs on the lobb and one of the frog jumps off the log and all this frog jumping nonsense. But I'm gonna tell you something. You're we're gonna get down on our knees right now, and God is gonna enter into your life in a new way, and before long you're gonna talk about being born again, which he talks about in the Big Book. And today I'm asking you if you want to make a decision, Steve, and get down on your knees with me and hold my hand and do the third step prayer, he said. And then what's gonna happen is, if you've made that decision inadvertently at once, you're gonna want to do all the rest of the steps because God will have entered into your life a new way that he hasn't before. Would you like to get on your knees with me right now and do the third step? That's what he said to me. And this is what I want to ask you guys, Tonight, I'm gonna ask everybody in here that wants to participate in the third step. We're gonna stand up right now. We're gonna get on our knees together and en mass. We're gonna ask God tonight turning our life and our will over to care of Him. And it doesn't matter if you've done it a million times. I'm sure people have done it fifty times with their sponsors. But I'm asking you tonight, on the seventeenth of November, you want to turn your life and your will over to the care of God. You're gonna do it together as a group right now. It's gonna be super powerful. I'm gonna get on my knees right now. I'm gonna wait, wait to see who's gonna be doing it with me. That all set up, I'm really welcome. I'll do what I call on the podium so they can see you confound. Let's have some reverence. What does that mean? We want to just invite God into this problems. For some people was the first time they've ever done this. And you're gonna also probably leave here and need to do this when you're sponsor. But tonight we're gonna do this all together. You don't have to know my heart. I gave your cards. If you read oft have the car God all for myself? Yea, all will please. There waits to those I would have like our I love life. Yeah, I will always. We don't get up, don't make a sound. Just listen to this. God sees you right now while we get on our knees. Is it any more powerful? No? But what it is, it's intentional, and we're showing God that we're intentional about our decision to have him run our lives. It's not gonna last time, but we're intentional about having him run our lives for today. No, remember seventeen, two thousands and twenty two. We're gonna get back up. We're gonna keep it quiet. Let it see right documents. Yea, we had a new employer being powerful. He provided what we needed if we kept close to him...

...and performed his work well established. On such footing, we became less and less interested in ourselves. What a incredible byproduct. We're gonna become interested less about ourselves that that's the most freeing thing for me. I'm whole. I ever thought about my entire life. What you thought about me, which you may be thinking about me. What the people in the room I'm about to walk in are gonna think about me? I gotta tell you to have freedom from that, To be able to walk into a room and not worried about what you're thinking a mommy is one of the greatest things that's ever happened. More and more we became interested in seeing what we can contribute to life. We felt the new power and I know that some of you are feeling that right now. We felt the new power flow in the Big Book talks about the Spirit of God, the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of God. As we felt new powerful gowin, we enjoyed peace of mind, as we discovered we could face life successfully. As we became conscious of His presence, we began to lose the fear of today, tomorrow or the hereafter. And here's the promise. We were reborn. God bless you guys. Happy Thanksgiving,.

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