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Episode 12 · 2 years ago

George G @ 14th Annual Speaker & Food Extravaganza Boca Raton FL 12-25-2019

ABOUT THIS EPISODE

Everybody, this is Eric from rocketed dot org. I hope you enjoyed today's recording. I'm a grateful alcoholic. My name is George. My sobriety date is January the nineteenth, nineteen ninety four. By the grace of God, great sponsorship and a whole lot of help from a whole lot of people, so far I haven't had a change that day and that's just so far. I'm looking around at the lights, and I said it last night and I'll say it again when I walked here, so all these lights. What it reminded me of is where I was December, the ten of nineteen ninety three, in a cloud blood box under the fifty nine shoe bridge. That's where my journey actually ended, but really started. That's when I decided I needed help to stop living the way I was living. And I've been around for a while. I'm in a literature person and I'm going to have to tell you what it's was like, what happened, what it's like now. So that's really about what it was like the journey since then, because my alcohol drug log you don't need to hear it, you all know it. We all have one and I'm more interested in what has happened over the list twenty five and three courters. Actually less ten days years. I will be twenty six on January to nineteen and so far I am still here only by God's grace. I got in here by His mercy. I've been reading a lot of literature for a very long time and the first time in many years I've been reading something and this was the twelve month and we're on the twelve step. And for all the years I've read it, there's a line in there while there's a little paragraph in there that I never saw before, and amazing how the book keeps changing, no matter which book I pick up, and says the magnificent reality of alcoholics anonymous is recreated by the wonderful energy which is released through the eager action, while we carry our message to the next suffering alcoholic through twelve steps and practice the principles in all our fears. I liked out mine where it says the magnificent reality of alcoholics anonymous. That's what I want to talk about. I've been speaking here for a long time now and the one thing I will tell you this is the first time in many years that I'm doing it standing up. That's that's a that the yeah, that's a gift from God. I've done it on with a cane, I've done it in a wheelchair, I've done in the Walker and after many surgeries and a lot of health issues, I am actually able to stand and walk on my own, which is a gift from God because I didn't know if I'd ever do that. To tell you a bunch of stories, because I like stories. When I got here, I didn't want to be here. I figured I was coming down for a three months, stayed in the halfway house...

...around a corner and I was going to go back home and I would be able to drink successfully without getting in trouble. I met a couple of men along the way and a lot of women. I got to say both, because it is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, that strength and hope with each other that could that we may saw what common problems and help others to recoup from alcoholism. I had to remember when I got in here I was complete mess. Some of the early people that I met was a guy by named Bob Welsh, one of the first men that I met, and I met him at the bottom line, five bottom lines ago, it's now six actually, and I walked into a room. It was on a second floor in the veritized building and I got there early because I would not ask for help. When I got here. Imagine us not asking for help, thinking we can figure it out all by ourselves. And what ended up happening is I got up to that second floor and he was sitting there and he said, well, when you come tomorrow, how did you know it's coming back to Mars has? When you come tomorrow, I want you get here a little earlier and I want you to save this seat for me at the end of the table and you sit right over here, but get here fifteen minutes earlier. So I got the fifteen minutes early, I saved the seat. And so well, now that you hear fifteen minutes earlier and save in this seats for me, why don't you get here five minutes earlier and stand by the door and welcome everybody to ten am meeting? So I did that and then he said to me, well, being you here that early, don't you get here another five minutes early in May coffy? So I came in. What I like to say on the ABC's, the ash trays, brooms and cheers, I got tripped into alcoholics anonymous. He treated me with dignity and respect, something I didn't have when I walked in here, nor did I feel worthy of. But what he did is he sat down and he spoke with me and he spoke to me in a way nobody spoke to me. He didn't tell me what I needed to do. He told me his story and his story was pretty much like my story. He had a broken marriage, he worked in a union. He actually was in charge of the train yards in Chicago. So I had a lot in common with him because he was a union guy and I would go to that meeting in the morning and there was a lot of people with a lot of power and a lot of time, and I'll say that way, they were powerful to me. One of them was Mary and Shay. She's no longer with us and I could use her full name. And when my mom got sick, I was told I needed an a a mom. So Bob said you see that lady over there? I said you mean that tough New York Freud and he said Yeah, he's I want you to sit next to her. And get to know her. I said I want to sit next to her. She's like kids off. You can't get never, says, sitting next to her and go to lower. You need an a, a mom. Your Mom's going to pass and you need an a mom. I sat next to her. What I found that she was a very gentle giant and she was very soft and I don't know where did my water. She was very soft and very caressing and she became like one of my best friends and...

I sober about six months and her and a woman named Cathy are I'm not going to give her last name because she's still available. Thank you, Brooks heads. She, the two of them, was sitting talk to me about my children, because when I came in I walked out of an AA meeting and I was started with tape is to give my children up, and I was not a happy camp when that happened. So I walked in and I was threw a fit and bob well, she asked me to go over and speak because he didn't have, you know, he didn't have the situation had and he suggested I go over and speak to the gentleman sitting in there by named Ben Tigue. And he has told me go over and talk to Ben, and Ben asked me a question, and I think I was about six months ober, and I'll tell you that's when alcoholics anonymous came alive. And Ben, he asked me a very simple question. He said what kind of custodian you were you those children? So I told him about the things I bought and said, I only asked you that, and I said I thinks I did. He said I didn't ask it. I asked her, what kind of custodian you? And I woke up and I realized that an absentee, emotionally absentee, parrot and I didn't like that feeling and I had some sick some have tough decisions from six months to about a year, year and a half. Do I give the children up? Don't I give the show? I went to every meeting and I got a million one different answers of what I should do and how I should do it. I should fight for my children, I should let him go. But somebody asked me another question along the way, and the question was very simple. What is best for your children? That's a choice that I did not want to make because I knew what was best for my children. I knew I was emotionally not available, financial, not able to or in any way to take care of those kids the way they need to be taking care of. So I decided if the one year of fighting with myself and everybody in the rooms, to give him up. I didn't drink that I want to drink. Oh yeah, I wanted to drink and I'll tell you, I was struggling with it and there was some suggestions made to me. I was doing steps. I was six months ober. I thought I had alcoholics anonymous down already. I was probably on my third step and somebody said, you know, give it to God. My favorite line is God and oldest. You give it a God. How do you give something to God that you're not willing to look over? And there's a little story, and I think story of about the broken toy man who goes to God with a broken toy and doesn't looks at the toy and it's not fixed and he says, God, you didn't fix this. He said, well, you never let oh, and that's what I couldn't do. It is I didn't have to let go. I didn't know how to let go and let the process of this program show me a way to God that I didn't want. When I got here, and as I stayed here and I signed those children over and I was struggling and they saw me said why don't you get a guide box? What's a guide box? Get A box and make it up and whatever you want to say to your children, write letters and cards and put it in that box. And then, if I was doing that for a little while, it was suggested that...

I actually mail them to myself. And that started back in one thousand nine hundred and ninety four and I started writing these letters and cards, putting a little flight, dollars in one, ten in another, one to my son, went to my daughter, some to both, and I did that for a very long time and I kept mailing to myself and I will tell you that I was miserable. We read the ninth step promises all the time and I used to go to meetings and I used to watch people come up here and see their children give them a medallion, or vice versa, or a child giving a parent for medallion, and that wasn't happening to be and there's, you know, the line of the bottom of the ninth step promises. Are these extravagant promises? And I used to say, Oh, yeah, you're extravagant, and I and then everybody kept saying no, they're not, and then I went to Bob and I said, Bob, did everybody's telling me these aren't extravagant promises is a joyge when you knew they're extravagant. I there were very extravagant. I believe the promises are extravagant, otherwise they wouldn't be promises. So I struggled with that. So I could not accept the fact that I was watching all these blessings coming to other people. And when was it my turn? And that was the question I kept asking. Somebody says it's your turn. When it is I know I didn't want to drink. I did want to do a lot of other things, but I did not want to drink. I did want to run a way, I did want to stuff my feelings and take off. I want to go to another state, anything not to deal with what was going on, because I did not know how to Clean House. In the big book it talks about in the fifth step. He pursued the rest of the program but after a while he went out and got drunk. We believe the reason is he didn't complete his house cleaning and they told me if I kept secrets and I didn't clean up the mess that I created, I would easy drink again or I would just disappear from alcoholics and arms and there's something in here that was a magic that I saw. It was people that love me when I was unlovable. They cared for me when I couldn't care for myself. I tell a story about my friend Kenny Kane, and people who remember Kenny Kane, I was at Denny's. I used to decode it to ten am meeting and the whole ten am meeting would go to Denny's right after the meeting and I believe they were drinking and I was going to catch him. They would way too happy not to be drinking, just the way I saw things when I got here and I would sneak behind Denny's and look in the window and they'd be sitting around, they be laughing and they kept inviting me in and I had no money and I would finally get the ten o'clock at night, because I go to ten am and I go to a bunch of other means and I go to ten PM. I S thought with a meeting and I didn't what a meeting. I go to a meeting's get something. By the day I had built up so much garbage that I need something to dump it. So I went to the ten PM and then they don't go out. Could that he's again. And one day I'm sitting there and all of a sudden a hamburger comes in front of me and I said I didn't ordered that. The said somebody ordered that for you. All I ever had was water. I didn't...

...even have enough for a couple of coffee in those days. And I said I'd knowed that. I can't afford that. They said you got to eat that, somebody sent it to you. I said, but I don't have money for it. So Kenny got up and says, listen, I bought you that hamburger and you're eating it and you never all gives with Kenny cane. That's one thing I learned, and when I learned from Kenny Kane, is that we piss things folly, and that's what he taught me. You know, each person along the way gave me a gift along the way. been very dear to meet Cathy's very dear to me. They have given me wonderful gifts, this spirtual gifts. camput a price on those. Bob Carried the message to me something never did a formal step with him Thursday might. My way into this program was Thursday night at Briscoe's with a piece of pizza, and then at six o'clock he dropped me off in front of the bow. Bottom line there was be a twelve step meeting, either a tradition or a step series. He dropped me off and then pick me up after the meeting and wanted to know what I learned. That's how I learned and I came in here that way. And then after a while he says you need somebody to take you through the book, and there's a guy by the name a Larry s who became my sponsor. A Matter of fact, come tomorrow he is coming down tomorrow. Tomorrow stirs, they had well got were having dinner. We do that once a year. His mom is very sick. He's on the other side of Florida. He lives in Texas, and once he that we sit down and we eat, we break bread. Today I like to stay and my first year he said, listen, I will take you through the book, I will sponsor you. Bob had moved away and he said, but I'm going to tell you right now that I'm not your banker, I'm not your friend, I am not here to do your legal problems, that I had a lot of those when I got here. He said, I am here to guide you through the book and get you through these steps, and that's exactly what he did. It was one year before I got a cup of coffee from him and I'll never and I learned to be something about being responsible. That's what he taught me. Responsible to my assignments, responsible to my commitments and responsible to alcoholics. Anonymous, because I wasn't responsible for anything when I got here. Well, I wanted is what can I get and how do I get out of here quick and have all the solution without doing any of the work? Doesn't work that way. So as I stayed here, I got more involved in the literature and there's a line in tradition nine now read that one says unless each a members followed the best of his ability, are suggested twelve steps to recovery, he almost certainly signs his own death warrant. He's drunkenness and disillusion not penalties inflicted by people in authority. They result from his personal disobedience to spiritual principles. I had a lot of disobedience to spiritual principles. I didn't believe in God. I didn't want to believe in God. I was, I don't even know if I said, a nastick or an atheist, but I knew if your parents went through what my parents through and you went through what I went through and...

...you married at really I had a whole lot of excuses but no real reasons. There were just excuses. And in the big book and talks about it, says we know how he feels. Some of US have been antireligious to others. The word God brought up a certain thing that was impressed in him with childhood, and with that impression he rejected to God idea. I rejected to God idea for a long time, but I did to work then believe in God work some steps. They two third step on July fourth one thousand nine hundred and ninety four, on the third step of Joan of AH outside the chapel when it was in the other sparn. And what ended up happening is I sat down with I kneeled down with Larry. I never knelt was another man to say a prayer in my life. And I kept using the excuse that Jews don't get on their knees. And I was asked this question, George, when you were drunk and hanging on to the toilet pool, you on your knees. Yeah, and when you were going through the cope with you on your knees. Yeah. So why are you disrespecting what I'm asking you to do? So I got on my knees and I said a prayer and I got up and he says, all right, you won't turn your role life over the care of guy. I said, Nope, you said you want to turn your will and life over to care two steps and I said yes, because I was and I did that for a step. I got to a blockage, and we all have blockages. And something I believe, and I'll always tell you when it's my belief and not something out of alcoholics anonymous or, and you know literature. I never found that in the literature, but there's a belief that I have today. I believe that every one of us that are in here something in our early life discolored our world and our solution became drinking. That's what I believe and I know what mine is, until you find what yours is. They told me they I wouldn't stay. There was always something, and mine was being molested when I was a young child by two men dressed as women. I was seven years old. I could talk about it now. took me a long time to talk about it because the tragedy and nightmare that that character with me made me feel dirty in so many ways and not accepted and not being able to tell you what really went on. So that was my blockage and I was writing my fourth step and we go to Denny's and Larry said, okay, well, how are you doing on your Flo all? I'm doing great, you know, and he said to me, well, why don't you bring it next week and let's see what it looks like? And I said I forgot it the following week and then the next week he says, well, where is it? It's a well, to tell you the truth, I never done because I knew that he says you, well, I'll tell you what either you tell me what it is, you go home and write it and burn it or you do something that you have UN till next week. I did next and if you don't do any of that, you might as well find the new sponsor because you're not willing to do what I asked you to do at the beginning. So I came back the next week and I told them I didn't do it, and he got up and he started to walk away and I said, Larry, wait and I sat down and I told...

...them that deep, doc sick secret that discolored my world from a childhood and we sat down and we got through that and then I went home and I wrote my first inventory, which I call my twenty eight page in moral inventory, because I was living on the street for a long time. I didn't have much morality when I got here. I walked away from children, I walked away from my relationship with my wife, I walked away from my relationship with my family. And I want to know why I didn't like any of them. They had nothing to do with it. It's everything I did, and I learned that in here too. It doesn't matter what others do, it matters what I do. So I did all that work and all of a sudden my life got better I am now sober a bunch of years. I will tell you that there's a pot in the big book. I had faith. I had a belief in the process, but I didn't believe it was going to work for me because my children went back in my life and I used the statement when I got in here I'm here to get my kids back and my kids would taken out. Why do I want to stay? But I kept staying and I will tell you that the journey that I went on was a very long journey. I had faith in the people in the room. When I had to give my children up, Cathie and Marian Shay made a suggestion to me and the other forget to suggestion. I was told to take two pillows, go down to the pier in the field beach rapt those two pillows in a blanket, with he being my two children, and give them to God. I did what I was asked. I didn't feel anything. I didn't feel anything after my third step. What I did learn? No, after I did those things, something about that first step was coming in. I was learning about this word cult surrender. I was learning to let go. I wasn't letting God, but I was letting go and as I work that process, God was taking care of me all along. I just didn't know it. God put people in my life long before I got here, people that around me. I had a knyt. I work for Union and while I work for the Union, I'm going to bounce back a little bit. I was working for the Union. I S thought an employee system program for people had a problem with drugs and alcohol didn't fit me. Five years later I used that program to get into here and that and I use that later on. There was always people and not the person who helped me the most was a woman named gene them, Gene Murtz. She's no longer working in the field, but she was ninety when she quit helping alcoholics. She was a proud member of Alanon, my sister fellowship and and and those people were always there. When I came in, they would people all around me that were trying to help me. My friend Rusty, who's sitting in here, I used to go into alcoholics anonymous, being I was such a wellknowledged person and I would work in alcoholics anonymous and say I read the third tradition says I have a desire not to drink, but boy, I wanna do certain drugs and I would bring it into the meeting and then I would walk into the other fellowship at night and say I have a desire not to use, and then I tell everybody how I would want a drink. See, I really wanted somebody to say you're not welcome there, to...

...do all leave so I can go get drunk or go get high at my cage. Nobody did that. They love me. They love me in spite of my behavior, and I learned about the tradition of unity through him. So my program started going on and I kept doing the things I was told. And there's a line on page ninety three that I like a lot. It says to be vital, faith must be accompanied by self sacrifice and on self constructive action, on selfish. I didn't how to be unselfish. Everything I did was a payoff. What Aman a gift from it? Why, why, why am I doing this if I'm not going to get that? Why am I saying sober if my kids aren't back in my life? And somebody said to me, well, your story really doesn't matter. Learn how alcoholics anonymous works is in your kids may need it. One day. Well, that day came. Now I will tell you that my journey with my children is a very long journey. I was sober fourteen years. On my fourteenth anniversary I got a phone call from a little girl named cassing Marie. That's my daughter, and that phone call was she wanted to know who a father was. She found me and that's when the promises were an extravagant anymore and that journey was started through emails and a couple of phone calls a month and she finally came down to visit me in two thousand started in two thousand and six and two thousand and eight came down to visit me. We started a relationship. That's a very strong relationship today. It's very healthy relationship today, is a matter of fact. I'm going to get to that story in a minute. There's a story that I told everybody. I'm going to tell because my journey has changed over the last couple of weeks, and I will tell you that my son not so much. We did not have a good relationship. Our relationship is still very strange. What ended up happening along the way is my ex wife called me and my son was in trouble and because I had some contacts with people in New York, I helped get him into a treatment center and through that Treatment Center he was supposed to go to a halfway house through Stevie and he didn't get to that halfway house in Riverdale. So he turned around and they wanted to move into his mother's house and she called me, my ex wife, one of the time. She needed something. So she called and I said well, what's up? She said, well, Robert wants a moving with me. What do you think? I said, I don't think it's good idea. You had a program he had a plan and you shouldn't do it. So she said, okay, I'm not going to so my grand my son is very much like his father. He decided to go downstairs to his grandmother's house and don't feed her into the botting. So he was living with my grandma, with his grandmother, downstairs...

...below my ex wife, and that's where he stayed for a while. Never went to the halfway house, got into some kind of trouble. Try to help him a couple of times, sent him some money do things that I was to what to do in here with nothing expected back, and I got exactly that. Nothing for a very long time, but that was okay. I kept doing what I was doing. My daughter came down at two thousand and eight two, as if to we started our conversation and she got a box, that box of that guide box I was asked to make with all those letters and gods and she went home with them and she opened up and a couple of days later my ex wife called me. So Oh, I never knew you felt that way. I said, well, I do, and you know, and you know what I was before is not who I am today. And that was my conversation with her and I still call her very regularly, whether she answered the phone or not. My job is to reach out and do what I was taught to do. I do that to my son, I do that with my daughter, but my daughter is a phone. We talked a lot. Well, since that relationship my daughter daughter started, I have two grandchildren. They're beautiful kids. I've been up there. I've actually got to spend two and a half weeks with my daughter. A couple of two months ago I was asked to come go speaking pain Pennsylvania and on my way up I had plans to fly into New Jersey and had right up to Pennsylvania and I was talking to my daughter and she said, well, you all going to stop by and see me? I said of course, I am how to change my whole bland immediately because that's my priority. And I went and I saw her and I saw the grandkids and we went out to dinner and on my way up at leaving her, I went up the stairs and I fell and I broke three ribs. So but I got to see my kids. That's what I had about, and my grandkids and that was very wonderful trip. I found out when I was up there in July of last year. Yeah, it must be almost two years ago. I was up there in July. I went up to with with my daughter. I spend time at our house and I went to see my son for his birthday. He knew I was coming. I saw my exmother in law, my my wife. We had a wonderful conversation R and I we finally supposedly cleaned everything up. Whether we did or not, I don't know, but my side of street was clear. I got to speak with my son, I got to take them out to all out to dinner. I took my son his fiance at the time, my daughter, her husband, the two kids and my son's step sister. My daughters and sons step sister out to dinner. My ex wife didn't show up, but that's okay. And then I went home and I found out that my son. During that time, I knew my son was getting married in December and I didn't expect to be invited. I mean she's closer to his stepfather than he is to me and I understood all that. I just told him just to be honest...

...with me, and then after that there was still no communication. I keep reaching out, he doesn't answer. I send him gives for his birthday. I don't get acknowledgement and that's all his journey, not mine, but I still do the things I was toot to do in here. Now I'm going to take you up to that other story. My daughter had let me know that his wife was pregnant and when I found that out, I reached out to him. Of course he didn't get back to me and two weeks ago on Sunday, yeah, it's two weeks ago Sunday. The baby was born on December the twelve and I saved the day for a very good reason, because Bob Welsh, my first sponsor, died on December the twelve. Coincidence, got incidence. I don't get into that. It's just one of those things that I know is divinely worked out. So when you know, when the baby was born, I reached out. There was no return and phone call and a week ago Sunday, they're all over the baby, the house, you know, the my my kids, the grandkids, the uncle's, the ants, everybody, and they forgot my there they are grandmother, my mother in law at the time, and what ended up happening is somebody went to get her and she walked into the house and when she walked into the house, my ex wife was holding the baby and she took two steps in, she saw my ex wife, she saw my the great new grandson, a great grandson, took another step, had a stroke and died on the spot. That night, last Sunday night, I got a call from my daughter. We are on the phone for a good two hours talking about you know, she just couldn't believe it. Everybody's there, everybody watch this tragedy. At the at the same time it was a birth beauty, beautiful thing involved with it. So I got up the next morning and I texted my ex wife a, you know, a text to her. I may send a text to my daughter after talking her. If she needs anything, if she's okay, call me, and I reached out for my son, of course, my son, to Nanser and I did my prayer meditation that morning. I did all that first and I was praying again and Stotton told me that in a voice that we hear, that not our head for a change, said why don't you call your daughter in law? And I decided to go look for her number, which I had from four years ago. I had to go through all my old phone numbers and I found that. I called her. She didn't answer. So I feel, you know, it's like everything else. I was on my way to ment on track that Monday meeting that I hadn't gone to, but I had just listed jobs. So there we go again, because me free time. God does me what I want through for myself. And I show up and I'm outside, right outside here, about a Hilf hour early in the phone rings. It's my daughter in law and we have a very long conversation and we talked about my son and I said I understand that's how he feels about me. But I would like some pictures of the baby. I got a whole lot of pictures from...

...my my daughter in law, and she said you just keep reaching out. You know, she always just been trying to make him reach back, but he won't. And a couple of minutes after the meeting I look down at my phone and it was a text my son said it's very hard. Thank you for reaching out, and but whenever I look at the baby I'm okay. So is it a back door way back to him my life? Yeah, I believe that. I don't know where it's going to go. I don't know where that journey is going to go, but I know one thing. If I picked up a drink, none of that would be possible. That I do know. So that part of the journey, you know. We talked about that part. You know, and I said the magnificent reality of alcoholics. Anonymous. Had I not done the things that I was asked to do, and I still do, whether I show up at a meeting, when I'm asked to speak, I show up there. If somebody asked me to help them, I'm glad to help them, whether it's step work whether it's sponsorship, whether somebody needs a ride. I've been doing that for a long time. I never get tired of that because, you know what, when I get outside of me, I get closer to God. God, am I understanding? I have friends that I go out to eat with all the time. We rip it up. If I've drinking, they would be ripping me up in a jail cell somewhere. I haven't had that experience hit, although I've been threatened more than once. You know, they tell you exactly what happened to me. I'll tell you exactly what happened and says the book says stressed a spiritual feature. Freely. I will tell you that I came in here not believing that this thing would work. And if you're an alcoholic like I am, and you new and it's your first Christmas, I want to tell you about my first Christmas. My first Christmas started Christmas Eve sitting in the bottom line shake Rattley and rolling and not a I'm afraid to leave the building because I was afraid I was going to drink. And then I was taken out of that building by two other people to take me to a guy named billy be and Genieb House to have Christmas dinner. And on that Christmas dinner I was around a whole lot of people with recovery and the first opportunity I had to do was will play with children, at least kids, and again let me know that there was something special was going on in this this this thing here called alcoholics anonymous, and I will tell you I made a promise that night that if I ever had the opportunity, I would open up, wherever I was on Christmas to anybody who needed it. Well, I had the privilege, when my mom was not when my mom was going home, when she was sick, to be at my sister's house and we opened up the backyard all the Christmas for anybody who is new or anybody that was around. We started at seven o'clock and I very similar to this or was in a backyard by a pool for all kinds of Christmas lights and Christmas decoration for the New People, because I was a new partle Parson once and I know how miserable I was my first Christmas and how afraid I was. And you know what, I'm not afraid of Christmas anymore. I'm not afraid of being alone anymore and I learned that in here. So I...

...opened it up and that we did that for eight years. That's there's certain things I just don't talk about very often because they're really not important, but they really are, especially around this time of the year when people are struggling. A lot of new people are struggling. You know, I us at a meeting last week and I sat by the door and they as they at people walk in, I just said a load everybody I didn't know. I did not know that was the first responders group that was sent by a treatment center. They needed to get to a meeting and I talked everyone in them as they came in, and now I'm reaching out to somebody I know who works which first responders to try and help these kids. These are people who came back from the wall, who have a whole lot of other issues, more than I had. You know, in there's people here that can help them because whatever we're going through, whatever we think is so major that we can't get through. I know one thing about alcoholics. Anonymous, someone in this room has already been there. There is nothing new in here. So whatever you're feeling or thinking or confused about, picking hand up and talk about it. There's somebody in here who's been there, and you know why? God will speak to you through one of the people in this room. Thank you for letting me shift. I.

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