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Stevie B. Step 3 at the 12 Step House 3/22/2022

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Stevie B. Step 3 at the 12 Step House, Fort Lauderdale, FL. 03/22/2022

My name is Stevie be I'm a grateful but recovering alcoholic and a member of the Golden Text Group of Hollywood flow. Did you get a third step card? Okay, want to recommend Hey Hounson, I want to recommend it everybody that's online. Over there. You guys, get your big books out and go to the third step. Okay, I see you guys with big books day today. I don't see you a moment if you could just grab your big book right there. Okay, good, let me see. All Right, Russell, obviously you're not going to get the big book because I asked you to do it, so just do the best you can. We are going to be in the big book line by line tonight, so I really recommend that you get into page sixty of the big book of alcoholics anonymous, and it's going to be very exciting. Are you guys excited? I'm really excited. My MOM's here tonight. Let's welcome my mom, Tony's MOMS, and it's Tony's MOM's here. Let's welcome Tony's mom. It's my back all moms that are here. Welcome all the MOMS and I want to say this is the first time my mom's been here without my dad. My Dad US. You guys know some you know. My Dad went home to be with the Lord eight months ago and this is the first time that my mom's been back in the twelve of the House without my dad. My Mom and dad have been coming to watch me and support me, not watch, we support me for the last to twenty years here at the twelve stephouse. They have never missed a step series that I've ever done to support their they're only son and this is the first time that my dad's not here in person. I believe that he's watching in heaven. The entire meetings going to be talking about God today. So of you, if you're have a hard time with that subject just now, just get over right now. Maybe you can just say it's yourself. Maybe just say it to yourself. Okay, you know what. They're going to talk about God the whole time and it's all going to work out. There's people in this meeting that have lost people unexpectedly overdoses, cancer, old age, sickness and stage sober through it. There's men up here that have lost the love of their lives in the prime of their marriage and I saw them go to a meeting the next day. I was there. Never picked up. We're going to talk about adult concepts in here tonight. There's nothing that you ever need to go through the rest of your life alone. My Mom's forty four years in recovery. My Dad, you can get a ploy for that. I my Dad Twenty eight years in gamble is anonymous, and twenty one years and alcoholics anonymous. My family has been saved by the twelve steps. Now some people ask me, do I think that the twelve steps are magical? No, I don't think the twelve steps are magical. I think the twelve steps are inspired by the Lord himself, just like when Moses came down from the mountain with the tablets, Bill and Bob came down from the desk with the big book and it's been helping men and women since the S. and what is worked one hundred percent of the time. One hundred percent of the time. Both do the same thing now that it did back then. But how it all happened? People always think it's bill and Bob, but my impression, my interpretation, is it all happened...

...in alcoholic number three. It all happened by them taking it to the next part. What we're doing right now. Build dots, and that's right. WHO said that? Okay, Grady, awesome. Okay, you said it back there. Great. I just want to let you know I'm going to be doing the talking. The whole thing is about one alcoholic bringing the message to the next person, about carrying this incredible message. We have a person. We have my friend. Where's my friend with the eye? Well, what's your name? Get One day. What's his name? But pay attention. You stot here. What? All right, I know you got one day. What's your first name? Text. What's your okay? Text? All right, that's fine. We'll start with that. That's good to okay, well, in Textis got this big shiner on his eyes. That welcome to Texas. Good Day, welcome, I believe I'm all. I'm not. There's no argue in here. Texas, I'm your friend. We we're happy you're here. Welcome to the program it's going to be awesome. Another lady that I just meant today, one she's Day. One. Another friend of mine that's here is coach coming off drugs right now. He's he's got drugs coming out of system right now, and here you're welcome. You never have to feel like this ever again. That's just so incredible. I had a friend today and said this is the worst thing that I've had. I Say, remembering, you never have to feel that way again. I got friends in here, my friends into some of the in the front row that had that are going through cancer right now, smiling because we have been let out of a completely seemingly and hopeless state of mind in body. The whole day I couldn't wait to get here to be with you guys. Twenty one years ago, the whole day I would have been dreading leaving the basement of my house. We're going to we're in the process. Hey, Joe, guys, wants you to keep my friend Joe at prairies going in for brain surgery. And nine days he's going in for brain surgery and nine days and today he's taking care of his alcoholism. Yeah, hey, Johnny, waiting to see you brother. And this is just incredible. Johnny paid her his back. Wow, how many days, John John Listen my sponsors watching tonight? was probably fell asleep ready. So I'm not gonna say he's watching, but he's in. He's in the room. Twenty one years ago my dad took me to a meeting. Twenty years ago, my dad took me to a meeting. I had my mom. So this is a sea. Joe Is a sea brother. Thanks mom. Anything else? Mom, just start over. Hi, everybody, my name is Steve. Be Main dinner for all of them also. That's great. We're going to do two. We're going to do a step three tonight. We're going to do step three next week. We get two weeks step three. Okay, we'll be four or five would be there in the same week. But this is the first part of step three, and so it's going to be a it's going to be...

...a story, and then it's also going to be my story, and then it's also going to be we're going to do that third step tonight together on our knees. For those for those of you that want to do a third step, raise your hand. If you ever be honest now there's not a don't start lying on the third step night. Raise your hand. If you've ever done what's Gw me, raise your hand. If you've never done your third step on your knee, raise your hand. If you've never done the third step. Come on, for people, come on, some you don't even heard the thirdstep till night. Raise your hand if you've never done the third step on your knees. Be on all right to now. You're going to have an opportunity to do that tonight. You're gonna have an opportunity to do that tonight. You're gonna have an opportunity to do it the way that Bob did it, Dr Bob, in his house, when people would come and say, listen, we're going to do the third step right now, and you have the card. You don't even have to memorize you have the card. We're going to do it together, in in unison, in one and if you and if you don't want to get on your knees, you don't get on your knees. It's not like you have to, but we're going to invite you to do that. Do it that way. We're going to invite you. It's going to be incredible. You're never going to forget it. All Day I've been excited. I made cards in my wife made cards in a good way to get here and my new my mom was going to be here and went online. We're going to get on our knees tonight together. I was six and a half years sober. And when I want to say sober, I wasn't sober minded. I was six and a half years clean and I wasn't sober minded. You guys know I told you a story. I I punched, I headbutted a guy in the middle of a meeting last week. I told you that story. And that's the man that broke up the fight right there. Owen, Vietnam War veteran less thank him for service. Please combat the combat reread, just like my dad, Korean War combat vetter. And he didn't. Wasn't going to the meeting, the poping on big book study, so that he needed a break up another fist fight. That wasn't his goal of the night. But because I was restless here in a will, discontent, taking steroids, so full of myself, wanted to hear the speaker. That was another guy speaking at the same time. I went up to the guy and said, hey, my sponsor speaking. Did I know the other guy was from Brooklyn? No, I didn't know that. I once I found out the other guy was from Brooklyn, there's really no other choice. I had to head button. There's nothing you could do. It's really only one way out. Of that situation and that man took me outside and Richard entered and they took me by my shoulders and they said this is not the way you act in alcoholics anonymous and you go back in there, you make your mends. And I went back in there, but by then it was so much Ruckus and so much commotion I had to come back the next week. Can Make my mends and I learned a little bit of a lesson. But I wasn't. I could not surrender to the idea that you guys had the answer that I needed for life. I couldn't surrender to that. I knew that it was good that if I didn't drink and it was good I didn't drugs, but I didn't understand that taking a step through, making a decision to turn my will in my life over to the care of God means listening to you, listening to what you have this group is more intelligent than me. My sponsor, with my God rest is so at the time, Myron Locksmith, for a Broward County. He just passed away last year or two years ago, with forty five years of sobriety. My sponsor at that time, twenty six years ago, he knew better than me. My Home Group, which was the Eleventh Step Group Twenty six years ago, knew better than me. Then my sponsor, John Williams at the time knew better than me. But no, I put it, I knew better than everybody. And so when I heard that there was there was fine wine and that people drank at tables and they put it into canters...

...in the middle of the table and you and they let it breathe first before they drank it. How is that? What is wine that goes in a decanter in the middle of a table and you have to let it breathe before you drink it? I never heard of something like that. And once I heard that there was that type of fine wine, I knew I was not powerless over that type of substance, because I went straight from mid to of two thousand and twenty two crack. I miss fine one. And so when I heard that there was fine wine that needed a breathe first, in my mind I became more powerful than certain substance, fine wine, which I never did. I never got there. I never drank wine that needed a breathe. I I wound up at all this moon Chinese food restaurant and federal highway and I ordered Japanese rice wine in a box. That's as fine as it ever gone. Oh, you guys would like this. Are you gonna love this story? And so all I wanted to do was have a glass of fine one. Right, I'm newly married, I got a beautiful wife. My mom says I probably shouldn't drink, my dad says I shouldn't drink, my wife says I shouldn't drink, but they said, as long as it listen, we don't think you should drink, but you haven't had a drink in seven years and as long as you don't go into drugs or as long as you don't drink serious, it's listen, it's you're an adult. And I had no plans of going back into drugs. No plan, that's obvious. I took a real first step when it comes to drugs. But once I had a drinking me drink. The drink then tells me where I'm going to go next, not the other way around. I don't tell the drink this warm going. I took a drink my photographer, my for my wedding. He was always telling me about this love drug. If you take this drug, you're going to love people. And I was always and I was an angry guy. was taking steroids and I'm from New York and I wanted to be a love guy. I wanted I wanted to be, you know, Lovey, and my photographer to people that take this are very loving. So I took it and I didn't turn loving, I turned bouncy. I bounced like this for three days, like up and down, up and down, up and that up and it's not the intention of this. It just jump for three days straight. I just wanted to have a glass of fine wine. So I go to work. I told you so, but not everybody was here last week. I go to work and and my hair dresser, that's I work, he tells me, Stevie goes honey. He looks, shout out. I will listen. I'm in jumping for three days. My friend told me if I take this drug, I'm going to be fine. And and I've been jumping for three days. He goes honey, all you need is a little Tina. I don't why. I don't know. Hold on a second. I used to have a terrible problem with cocaine. I can't do any type of coquete. He goes by this ain't okay, this is Tina. It's going to be fine. He takes a little cute little thing in there, puts in a little Tina Bay and puts it in my nose and I go whoa, and I was like wow, this is amazing, and that Tina turn into I can beat me all around a town for like the next two year change my life. I was hanging out all was hanging right outside the club looking for a little Tina. Thirty years ago you couldn't find that down here in south Florida. That's not good to get involved in a drug that they don't sell. It was horrible and my family watched me go from adult size down to a little tiny nothing. There was nothing left. The eyes were in the back of my head. I had a paranoid delusions. I thought everyone was talking about me. I was up all night long. I never ate. Everybody was following me. My whole life went right down the toy it. All I want to do was one I have one glass of wine. You See, my intention is to drink...

...like a regular press. My intention the disease of alcoholism has another intention that wants to destroy me and rob me and take everything from me, take my dignity from me, change my identity, change my identity. I don't even know who I was. and My mother, my father found me on the underneath the closet in my house on January second, two thousand and two, and my mother cried. My mother's from Brooklyn, so she cried and cursed at the same time. My father, he was already in the program, so he took me to my last detox and and brought me to the Fort Lordedale hospital in January third, two Tho and two. And I tell you that stories because I want you to know that my intention was to have a glass of wine. The outcome was not up to me. Now I want to reverse it today. Today my intention is to get closer to God, and the outcome is up to him. When I turned my life, in my will, over to the care of God, he's going to do the heavy lifting. He's going to come up with a great idea. I haven't punched anyone in two thousand one and twenty two years. Well, Jerry Tech me once, but I haven't taught twenty two years. I have not been in an altercation and in alcoholics anonymous meeting since I one broke that. I have not been arrested in twenty two years, twenty one years. And why is that? I got arrested four times in one year. I got arrested the things that I didn't even do. I got arrested for sleeping in a car. That doesn't even seem like that should be against the law. I took up four parking spaces, but I still I got arrested for it. You see what I'm doing. God's will, all sorts of remarkable things will follow. The big book says that if we stay close to God and perform his work, will right chill also. It's a remarkable things will find mark. So I'm in this fullblown relapse and then I go to this stream and center Miami Col transitions and I relapse right after that again. And I relapsed and I relapsed and I relapsed and I relapsed and my dad, in his in his incredible patients with me, picks me up after I just have a six felony car crash. That means in one car crash I had no felonies and the next minute. I have six felonies. That's that's like overachiever type of stuff. That's like one big swoop. And he takes me down to the West Dixie Club House of alcoholics anonymous and I hear Russell speak for the first no, I had already been in the step series with Russell. That's why I told him to take me down to this west Dixie group and and Russell did something bold that night. What do you think he did? He let me tell you what he did. He talked about the big book of alcoholics anonymous by way of the Bible, which is Luke ten being a good Samaritan. We're going to talk about that in a couple weeks from now. He brought out the Bible in alcoholics anonymous and I was my eyes, we might want. My one eye was shot. Was Shocked because I knew that this was going to be crazy and everyone was going to scream out of him and take him outside and and call him names. And none of it happened. Just so when I was at a retreat a couple weeks ago and Paul did the same thing and we were like this, yes, you mean the Good Samaritan comes from the Bible. Oh my God, you mean when they talk about it in Dr Bob and the good old timers, which is a a approved the literature, and they say that we use these books. We talked about the book of James. We taught my first Corinthians thirteen, love sermon on the Mount. You mean there's actually some substance behind this writing of this book? Absolutely. Where do they come up with the concept to turn...

...their life in their will over to the care of God, God himself? This has been going around with thousands of years. I've been an a for seven years. I never turned my life with my will over to anybody, and the result was I picked up. You See, if I'm not willing to turn my life with my will over to the care of God, that means I'm well. I'm going to turn my life with my will over the care of me? And am I to turn my life with my will over the care of me? I want to be doing steroids and look at it, go with girls and get more cars and look at my muscles and how's my hair, and look at my gold chains and let me get my car out there and let me put my car in the the hand. He had parking space and look at me. If I turn my life on my will over to the care of me, I'm going to feed me, with me, feed me. But when I turn my life in my will over to the care of God and I become more like him and less like me, well, let me tell you what the big book says. Being convinced, we were at step three, which is that we decided to turn our will in our lives over to the care of God as we understood him. Just do we? What? What do we mean by that, and just what do we do? Well, the first requirements that we be convinced that any life run on selfwill can hardly be a success. What do they mean by that? Let me tell you what they mean by that. That's paid sixty two. If anybody wants to know big book, I recommend you bring a big book to the series. We're going to be a lot inside the big book. I think I'll be great. Gets yourself a highlighter, spend one less drink of red bull and get a highlighter and then come here to the meeting with a big book and one less pocket of cigarettes. That's a big book and then a highlighter and then just do some highlight I think it's going to change your life and change my life. So we want to get pregnant, my wife not. I know it's this going to be like pulp fiction. It all comes together at the end. Just stay with me. This guy we here. I got with but what happened? Because it's got right there. But what the heck happened? I gotta stay in it will it's all going to come together at the end by the twelve step, is what I see what you're doing. But you also got shop when I just screamed out we wanted to get pregnant and we couldn't get pregnant. So we went to avert netro fertilization clinic, we went to a doctor and we tried and we tried and we tried, and we couldn't get pregnant, my wife and I. and then we went to the country of South America and her beautiful niece donated her eggs to us, which is like a big deal, and we couldn't get pregnant like that. And then we did something totally outrageous and we hired a sergon. You know, sir, get, someone that care as their job to carry to be. That's a that's like a done it. Once you get to Serge it, that's a baby. We can't have a me. So during this whole time, I want you to know I'm praying and I'm giving it over to God, but I'm tell you that that's not what was going on. I'm to tell you that's not what was going on. Every time we failed, it something I stepped it up a notch. I wasn't turn of my life, in my will, over to the care of God. I want to tell you that I was. I want to tell you I was turning my life, my will of to the Care God, and hindsight is I know that I wasn't. I would just figure what's the next thing? How I step this up? When I said to my wife, let's get a Serviu, she's like do you think this right thing to do? I'm like this is the right thing to do. When I said to my mom, my dad visit you show, that's the right thing do. I'm like this right thing do. But I wasn't asking God.

You see, if you already made your plans and then you ask God to bless it, well, but if you already do God's will, it's already blessed. This is what I'm saying. Someone comes into your halfway house and you look at that person and you're like, man, that's my soul mate right here. This is going to work out. We got the same curfew, were into the same roof, we got the same drugged choice. This is what I've been waiting for my whole life. And and then it doesn't work out because you already made up your mind before you ask God what his mind was about. And we eventually get pregnant. Circuit doesn't work. That our beautiful nieces eggs doesn't work, and we eventually get pregnant and then we lose the baby at late stage and we're devastating and during that time nothing could touch us. We built the baby room in the house. I mean we were so in love with God. Everything was perfect, you know, Zippity Dude, was incredible, and I want you to know that I don't think my heart was right the whole time because I was already living in the miracle instead of being in the day of every day, saying thank you God for what I have today. I was already living in the baby being born. I didn't think we could lose the child because I'm already following God. I'm already ministry, I'm already in a meeting's I'm already sponsored people, I'm already taking meetings into a treatment center, and so I didn't think it was even possible for any bad things happen. But when I really break it down, there's a man with cancer in the front row. There's another man up here that lost his wife to cancer. My mom just lost of her husband, my dad. There's things going on all the time that on the surface, seems like is God watching. Is He involved? And I want you to know he is. But I have to turn my life and my will and the things that I want over to him, and that's when the remarkable things will follow. So we lose the baby and I beside myself, my wife's beside ourselves, we're crying every day. We got the baby room built, but that night I have to take a meeting into a place called Christian recovery solutions. The night we lose our child is the night that's my meaning to take into a treatment center and that's the night also that my wife goes to the Melrose Park Alan on meeting across town at Saint Sebastian, and she's got a meeting to take in, but we don't want to go to a meeting. We don't want to go to a meeting because we pissed off at God. We've been trying for five years or three years or four years, whatever it was. We don't want to go to a meeting and talk about God. Well, we have committed, and so I go broken hearted to my meeting and my wife goes broken hearted to her meet. Now I want you to know how amazing God is. There was a man at that meeting by the name of Doug and he called me today just by chance. He's got fourteen years clean. He's got six grand babies, two children. He was quoting me back. He said the reason he asked me during that step series, which was too I think it was two thousand and nine. I'm not sure. I can't do them mental, I'm not sure. But anyway, he said he was in a step series. He saw me at the twelve stuff house that he knew I had to be a sponsor because I had lost a baby and I came into his treatment center and I was still had to joy the Lord in name. But I want you to know some Doug was in that meeting. There's a woman named Janna that's in this meeting tonight. That was in that meeting. Now I want to ask you if I didn't go to that meeting that night and I and, and May I say your name or no? And if and if don didn't go to the victory...

...meeting after he lost his beautiful wife Pat and I wasn't there at that meeting that day and saw him stay sober through that. And Janet, that happens to be sitting over there, Sam stay sober through that. You See, my will is to go home and smoke, crack and drink and never come back to alcoholics. Anonymous God's will is for me to turn that over into his hands and he is going to figure it out. Now that woman sober fourteen years. She sponsors a ton of women in here, including Nancy. was sponsors have before Lorday. You See, just in case you think that God got you sober for you, you're not looking at the big picture. You're part of the picture, you're part of the plan. But I needed to go to that meeting that night to meet two people by the name of Jan en dumb so they saw a man that was crying his eyes out and still say sober, that's turning your life and you will over to the care of God. Are we always going to lack God? No, we're not. Gonna always like God. I don't like his decisions, unlike some of the stuff he's doing, because I'm looking at it to my Lens, like if I was God, I would do it like that. It seems like it. When I was six and a half years sober, I was into body guild. I know, use your imagination. Just got to go with the story. I'll talk to made him take my inmentry. Now. This is twenty five years ago. Okay, so twenty five years ago I was very into bodybuilding. Right mom telling the yes, okay, because they're all like are you talking about? And when I was totally sober and I had not relapsed, I said to a guy that was the strength coach for the Miami Hurricanes, what did the guys do to build big muscles when they sleep? Because I want to build big muscles also when I sleep. I want big muscles during the day. I'm taking stuff for that, but I need stuff for the night time so that when I wake up in the morning my muscles are even bigger and he says. And now this is six and a half years sober. I have not a drug at my system other than steroids. I'm not really steroids, you know steroids. And so I say to the strength coach, who's this monstrous guy? He says to me, Oh, everybody takes this, so I'm not going to say the name of the substance. Goes. Everybody takes this substance and it comes in a clear jug, a milk jug with no label, no label, and it's made by a very good guy's name is Julio, and we make big vats of it in a bathtub with chemicals from Home Depot. He goes and if you take a cap full and that's enough, you'll get amazing sleep. You go into incredible sleep, you'll produce great hormones in your body, you'll wake up and you'll have great muscular development. But if you take too much you could go into cardio though, you can go into respiratory failure and some people die. I said, is there? Is there if there's some type of training that comes with this? He was no, it's a clear jug, like I said, made by a guy named Julio, and we've seen gravy so there's a couple people that die, but we seen great results for people that have the right amount. And this is what I said that six and a half years clean, running my own life, turn my will in my life over to the care of me. There's what I said to him. How much is the joke? And it wasn't to get high. That was now I'm...

...not told my getting high. That was my best thinking, sober. My best thinking's Ober. It give you the joke. Is a possibility. My muscles could be bigger in the morning. That sounds like a price I'm willing to pick. And then six months later I was already I was already using because my mindset was turned my life on, my will over to me. Four years, sorry, fourteen years later, we lose our only baby. My Mindset is God, you've given me a meaning to come to on a Monday night. It's incredible honor and I don't want to go, but I've seen don go and I've seen other people go and I know that they stayed sober, and so I know I'm going to be able to go and I know that you're going to use this in my life and sometimes we're going to get to see the fruit of these incredible things. I'm blessed at every time I see Joanna, every single time I see Joanna, and it just so happens don't call me today, and it was six months ago that it called me. He didn't always doing a step series, God reminds me. Listen, don't forget, Steve, I got this. I'm running the whole universe. You can't even figure out you're dyeing. Let me take care of the universe. Okay, you try to eat less, carves and and I'll take care of everything else. And and he's got this. And so this is why I want to do this with you, guys. The first requirement is that we be convinced that any life run on self will can hardly be a success. On that basis, where almost always in collision with something or somebody, even though our motives are good. When I got that joke of unmarked clear liquid, my motives were good. I wasn't looking to get high. I thought this was in my best interest. I had not checked out with the creator of the universe. Is this something I should do? I do it and then I ask God to bless it. God say don't do it that way. I've already blessed the plan. Find out what the plan is, and then you're already be blessed. Most people try to live by self, proposed propulsion. Each person is like an actor who wants to run the whole show. Is Forever trying to arrange the lights, the ballot, the scenery, the rest of the players in his own way. If his arrangements would only stay put, if only people would do as he wished, the show would be great. Everybody, including himself, would be pleased, life would be wonderful. In trying to make these arrangement our actor sometimes seems quite virtuous. What I always think I have the right intentions, I'm always think that I'm going to do the right thing. I always think I'm thinking about other people. But when I check it out, is this what God wants me to do? When I use that as the pendulum, God's will versus my will? Where do I lay in that? Where do I land in that? This is the how and why of it. The next page, the next page, and this is the mean potatoes right here. First of all, we had to quit playing God. There's people that have come in to my office and I just know they're going to be disaster for each other. I mean they look like to train rex that just got hit on the same exact accident. They're like we're going to go again that. I'm like, Oh, this is gonna be terrible. He's gonna be terrible. For five years later they got two kids, are sober. They run in a meeting in all Iowa. They're like looking it, it all worked. I got God has of the plan. My sponsor, Russell, met his wife when he was one months ober and he's forty four years sober and forty four years married. I'm sure his sponsor said to him this probably not a good idea, and dicky would have had a sponsor. She should have said to...

...him this is not a good idea to her. But I'll work out at least for Russell, he's not laugh. He's not even on there the on time for a number four. Oh, he's still on there and he's a week aparently this is the how and why of it. We have to quit playing God. It didn't work. Next we decided that here after in this drama of life, God was going to be our director. Raise your hand if you want God to be a director. Raise your hand if you want God to be right. Who about to do a third step? This is time. You're going to get involved right now. Raise your hand. You want God to be a director. Lowi your hand for second. When I wanted me to be a director, I got some stuff that was made in the bed to buy guy named Hulia. That's how I run my own line. When our God is directing that, I'm going to tell you. The story is that we've lost that baby. We can adopt in the state of Florida. God introduced me to a man in my home group by the name of Happy Bob. He was an attorney, very good attorney, and then he got caught with two kilos, and then he got this Bart but he still had connections. And then he pointed me to a woman by the name of Mindy that was in Voca that could possibly come down into a home study in our house and possibly sign off on US having a baby. Where are we in time? To push you right in here. Mindy came down and by this time my wife and I are over the top Christians. We're like bumpus tick a Christians, T shirt, Christians, giant Jesus poster, Christians. We got paintings, we got crucifixes, we got St Francis, we got holy order, we got rivers of living water going through my house and I said to my wife, I said, sweetheart, maybe we should try to take down giant Jesus for Jewish midbey that's coming from Bocca to bless our home, to maybe we're going to get a baby. Maybe we should like tone it down a little bit. And and my wife, she's sold. She's so wise. She said we're not going to pretend who were not and we didn't change anything. I mean we weren't wearing Tshirt, but we didn't change anything. And Mindy came in the House and she saw a giant Jesus and she read the testimony. She said, do you think that God gave you another chance? And and we said we know he didn't. So she said how could we not, how could I not give you another chance? And she signed off on our house for a home study and then just a little time later we were able to adopt our beautiful son, Joshua, and I'm going to thank you, Jason, and I'm going to tell you more about Joshua has the weeks go on and how he looks exactly like my mother and all these incredible things, but I want you to know my plan was to have a surgeon carried the stuff with her and then hand off the babies to me and God's like. That wasn't my plan. My plan is you going to go to another state to adopt the baby by the name of no name, and you're going to give them a name, by the name of Joshua, and you're going to tell that woman that doesn't do anything about the Bible, that's the mother of Joshua, why we named him Joshua and when she asked you, you're going to say because in the Bible it says in Joshua hundred and fifteen. For me and my house, we choose to serve the Lord. You're going to tell her that my plan for you, Stevy, is to get Joshua and bring him back home and I'm going to have people from alcoholics, anonymous, that are going to be on your lawn and are going to say welcome home, and he's going to look exactly like your mom and what he's with your mom, they're going to look like twins. And I got this all covered. And you thought you knew plan A. I got plan B and it's my plan is better than any plan that you've...

...ever come up with. You give the Lord around the plays for that. I know you're like you don't know if the class, you don't know like to say Amen. You're afraid you're going to get thrown out of a where they're gonna throw you. There's not a lot of people want to receive this group. I just want to let you know. So what we're going to do right now. If you want to get on your knees with us, we're going to get on our knees. Anyone that can do it, anyone that wants to. And if you don't, it doesn't mean you're not spiritual, doesn't mean you don't love God, doesn't mean you're not doing a third step. But if you want to do a third step all together, well, I'm going to tell you where this comes from. And if you don't, you don't right here, right when we we sincerely took such a position, all sorts of remarkable things followed. We had a new employer, being all powerful. He provided what we needed if we kept close to him and performed his work well. More and more we became interested in seeing what we could contribute to life. As we felt new power and new flow in, new power flow in, as we enjoy peace of mind, as we discover we could face life successfully, as we became conscious of his presence, we began to lose the fear of today, tomorrow or here. After we were reborn. And your sponsors going to take you by Anthea, your hand, and you're going to take the next sponsor by your hand, lass like I'm taking Shelton's hand and we're going to do the third step prayer. I'm taking my friends down hand. If you don't know the third step prayer, get your cards right now. We're going to do it together. God myself to be me and will relieve me on the bombers, yourself that I made better do. That will take away my difficulties, that victory over them. May Bear with this to those I went hell. Thy Power, THY love and THY way of life. May I do THY will always. Amen. Amen. Listen. You could say Amen, wait, wait, wait, the me he's not over. Get it probable, come off your needs. You say men, because they men just means. I agree. Okay, there's some people that this, this what they say. They say, well, it's not in the big book, but the big book says the words can are option. So we had amen, because it means I agree with God. Amen. So watch this. You just did a third step. I don't care if you're one day, I don't care if your name is Dallas, I don't care, or Texas or you, or are you just you just did a third step and guess what? Watch this, watch this, listen to this. When they would go to Dr Bob's house, was one second clean, they would do the third step and you know what type of you know what type of recovery that they had. It was like ninety five percent. You don't have to live for your own wills and desires anymore. Every time that you want to do something that you don't want to do, do it because God asks you to do it. Next week, when you don't want to come to this meeting because we're going to talk more about him, do it anyway and go out. Read the back of the card and says trust God, Clean House and help of his God. Bless you, guys.

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